Hi Ladies...waiting for something after IVF

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6/21/10 8:24 P

Hi ladies....I am so down in the dumps....I just did my second IVF cycle the past few weeks. I had a 5 day transfer with two great blasts they put back in me, but on day 6 the third one they thought would make it to freeze didn't....anyways, I have become a POAS addict and of course did this morning and BFN which would be 4dp5dt....it has made me SO upset...I am so stupid...I know it has to be early, but I just don't feel pregnant...I feel like it didn't work, I have tried to be as positive as possible, but it's so hard to be after 2 1/2 years of pain....not to mention that my body feels beat up and I have gained 35 lbs from being on hormones for 2 1/2 years now. Anyways, do you all think it's WAY too early to test??? I feel like I am going out of my mind.

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6/22/10 9:13 P

It is way too early and will only cause you more stress than your body needs right now. My friend just went through and at her day 7 blood test, her HCG level was barely noted so it definitely wouldn't register on a HPT. When I went through IVF, I didn't feel pregnant until 3-4 weeks after the transfer. Hang in there and try to stay busy so the time goes faster. I will be saying prayers for you!

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6/22/10 10:09 P

You know....that makes me feel a bit better...cause I have been reading all day online that lots don't even get thier pos until Beta....but I wonder why I wouldn't get a pos early since I did the last time ya know. Or is every preg different? When you did your IVF, did you test early? I just pray, pray, pray this is it cause after this, I am giving up. My body has been through too much over the last 2 1/2 years. Is your friends preg going well even though she had a first low beta BTW?

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6/23/10 9:49 A

I'll be praying for you...Hang in there...hopefully you will see a positive soon.

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6/23/10 11:06 A

Fingers crossed for you.

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6/24/10 2:26 P

I understand about the changes in your body...I did 5 IVF cycles and gained 80 lbs due to the hormones and the depression that came after the BFN! My friend is doing great, she sees the heartbeat tomorrow. I never did a home test when I went through, I guess I wanted to cling to the hope that I was pregnant for as long as possible! Have you had your day 7 and day 10 blood test yet?

I know this is hard to hear, but I finally got to a point where I decided that I couldn't put myself or my husband through the pain anymore. We decided to live our lives without the obsession of having a family. Two months after we completely stopped thinking about it, we were pregnant with Madden on our own! When people use to tell me to stop trying so hard, I would want to scream at them. It was easy for them to say. It worked! Please find a way to take away the stress of having a baby, it may work wonders for you like it did for me.

I understand every emotion you are going through, I know the pain of every failed attempt...especially when you are mortgaging the house for it! My heart goes out to you and your dh for the stress this has put on you and possibly your marriage.

I am always praying for you,
Heather

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6/24/10 4:06 P

It's SO true about the stress on the family...funny I just opened it cause not only has it been hard on my and my DH, but I have been dealing with the in laws on this today actually. They made me feel SO bad today, making me feel as though it was my fault and that since my DH is the only child...that they REALLY want a grand child. Well, um....yeah, I would like a family myself. I am so depressed today making it even MORE pressure on me. I swear, I think DH will leave me if this doesn't work this time.

My blood test is Saturday....which I believe with be a point in my life where things will change dramaticlly one way or the other :(

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6/29/10 1:26 P

You can not be blamed for having troubles conceiving!! I know it is hard not to feel responsible or like you are broken in some way but try not to...it will tear you apart!!

Your blood test was Saturday and since you weren't on here immediately sharing your excitement, I am afraid that the results weren't what you had prayed for. If that is the case, I am so very sorry and I am here if you need to yell, scream or cry.

Heather

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6/29/10 1:32 P

Yes, you are correct :( it was negative....I am so beside myself....I am throwing in the towel for now. I have endo, so I don't even know if it's possible to even concieve on our own, but I need to take a break for a while cause I have beat my body up for the bast 2 1/2 years and I can't take it anymore....I don't even know what to think about every day now, cause I have been obsessing this whole time.

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7/1/10 6:45 P

I was just thinking of you the other day. I am so very sorry that it didn't work this time. Take care of yourself and I am always here.

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9/21/10 5:28 P

I am so sorry that things didn't work out this time. I will be thinking of you and hoping for brighter days for you.

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9/21/10 9:38 P

Thinking of you.