|Letter #2 to Baby Aaron... BLOOD!!!!! blog
You gave me the scare of my life this morning!! Oh my goodness! I woke up around 2:45 a.m. today. I sorta shuffled in bed looking for a new comfy position. When I did, I felt a massive gush of blood come from me. I rushed to the bathroom to confirm my suspicions then rushed to the shower.
So between me and you and anyone reading this letter, I sorta skipped a shower yesterday (I never do that, but it was our day off-- I was on bed rest). I actually hurried into our tiny stand-up shower in order to take a fast shower just in case we went to the hospital again. I had a bad feeling that we would need to go, but I was really hoping I stopped bleeding…or for some miracle.
You see, a week ago when I first bled, the specialist in the Labor and Delivery unit of the hospital told me not to come back to the birthing center unless I filled a pad within an hour or so. (I am assuming by now you are old enough to know what a pad is and why a woman would use them.) The specialist did that because bleeding in my condition is actually common, but that it would probably resolve without event.
So as I showered, I mulled over the Perinatologist’s words (that’s the title for the specialist who gave me the orders the last time I was in Labor and Delivery). I prepared to sit with your father and wait. I prepared to just watch my underwear and the pad I would wear… I made mental notes on things to expect and when I planned to panic… Then it happened. While I washed I looked down, and the largest gush of blood I’d ever experienced came from me. Blood ran down my legs with the aide of water. It seemed to move so slowly! There was so much, Aaron. I am used to heavy periods but nothing like this. It really, really scared me. I tried quickly to rinse some of it away, when suddenly the largest THING came from inside me. It fell to the shower floor with such force! What an eerie sound… I thought part of YOU came out of me!!
Later your father gathered that piece out of the shower to show the Labor and Delivery staff. We wanted to make sure we brought in anything they might need. When the staff examined it, they assumed it was a massive blood clot. They came to that conclusion after they found your heart beat and saw that everything was fine. Apparently, they see bigger clots sometimes. This clot was about the size of three of my fingers put together. I can’t believe this is part of our story!!
So now here I sit. Still in Labor and Delivery. This is the same room I was admitted into a week ago. I have grown fond of this room. I think it’s sorta our room :) I like the nurses and the food isn’t bad at all!! I just found out they have a DVD collection that I can watch to pass the hours. That is what your father and older sister are doing while I type.
One really, really good thing about this visit is the shot I was given today. There is a steroid shot they can give mothers to make the baby’s lungs mature. I got my first shot today!! Ohhh…. What a wonderful sigh of relief! Tomorrow they will give me a second and final dose. 24 hours after the second dose is when they say you are in the clear. I’m so happy I’m here, and I’m so happy about that!
Well, I should probably spend some time watching those DVDs with your father and sister. Daddy won’t be here all night, and he and your sister leave in about 3 hours. I have no idea what I’d do without your father, Aaron. He is so amazing. When I think about how fortunate I am to have him, it brings me to tears (and by the time you read this, you’ll probably know how very little I cry). I’ll more than likely catch you up again soon! I love you, sweet child and you have no idea just how happy I was to hear your heart beat this morning!! Yes, I cried. They were tears of joy, my dear. God is keeping you safe. I’m so thankful!!! So until my next letter, grow!! We might meet sooner than I expected.
I love you!!