well kiddo- for as much peace as the Tues apt brought today's reg ob check brought back the crazy fears! Protein was back in my urine- I was almost unable to leave the office today and had to redo the urine test a few times to see if I was just dehydrated. Blood pressure is creeping up over the visits as a whole. Back aches- to be considering where we are. Headaches? yes. Swelling- still only in my hands. Up a pound- NP shook her head in disbelief. (a pound in a month kiddo seemed like we had conquered Everest to me!) Dizzy- yes, but could be considered part of the process. Forgot to mention I can vomit at will these days- not our proudest moment of course, but there we are regardless. Finally- your heart beat was in the 150's after she couldn't find it- scary moment!- and she thinks your measuring large but that was only with a tape measure so who knows.
Some times you can tell when someone's holding back info- its in their eyes and demeanor. Some times you should ask more questions, I know, but some times, I've learned that it only brings on more stress. Which isn't what we need right now.
If you want my honest opinions here- I think they are monitoring me for pre-eclampsia. It is what my gut tells me. While my gut is usually right, but I hope to all heavens that it's wrong. I really do.
In a quite but serious way we went over the headaches, and how to identify preterm labor like 19 times. We revisit the reasons why I should not hesitate to call them and etc. etc. etc. She let me walk out today but there was hesitation. So come what may- kiddo keep doing what you do and I will get some of your details and laundry done this weekend. I will also pack our overnight bags as precautionary. I have loaded the phone with all the phone numbers we need.
Prayers for us kiddo, Love your Mom