| Walking a Bit Quieter blog |
I feel like this pregnancy has made me so very different. I really love what life has brought my way and all the changes that have taken place, but I didn't expect to be sorta "hushed" into a peaceful place. I'm not sure why this step is taking me by such surprise!
DD is now in a really nice child development center that will prepare her for school and help her learn all sorts of things, one of which is a greater sense of appreciation. I love that we were able to do that (such an answer to prayer!). So now that she is away all day long, I finally have the "ME" time I've wanted for so, so long. We have kept DD home with me for her entire life, and I love the distance we now have. I feel like I can concentrate on the preparations for DS, and to be honest, I use that logic to mask the guilt I feel. I've never been away from DD, so I feel guilty not having to look after her and fix every boo-boo. I know I'll miss her in the months to come, but I don't right now... and I guess that's the reason I feel so guilty.
Anyway, I think I walk differently, too--metaphorically speaking and literally! It seems the changes that have taken place have really impacted me. I hope it's for the better! I'm honestly humbled by all the blessing and aware of how fast the blessing can disappear. I truly am taking each day at a time and enjoying every step of the way.
 I'm enjoying what I eat too-have to stop doing that as much!
When I look back and read this months or years later, I wonder what changes will have been made since this entry. Life is so funny in that way. At this precise moment, all of my silly issues seem so big...
6.23.2012
|
|
View All Entries 
RSS Feed