So most of you know that I have been thinking about having a baby since December, but decided to wait to make sure I was making the right decision. Well since then Terry has moved in with the girls and I and we are doing really good. We still have disagreements but those are handled so much better. I think since we were last together we understand each other’s situations a lot better. He knows how hard it is to take care of the girls and I know how hard it is to work and have chores and have to be a family mommy. Anyways we have kept the discussion of having a baby on our plate but didn’t want to rush things. Well I have gone from on-call to a temp position (also came with a pay raise!) and he also got a full time steady job in town. So financially we are looking to be great! So we decided that we did want a baby we just hadn’t chosen the month. After tracking my period and ovulation cycle we decided that we wanted a February or March baby (no double birthday months and the weather won’t be hot while I’m my biggest). So we were looking at the 18th of this month as a good day with my cycle. Well the other day we were having the discussion how choosing to have a baby is not logical, with things like overpopulation and adoption, it’s almost silly to want more children, but for some reason it’s an emotional decision that you can add logic to (finances, stability, etc.). Anyways that morning we decided we wanted to have “adult time” before the girls woke up. Well when he finished things just felt different so I asked him if everything was ok. He told me to “look at this” well the condom had BROKEN! I was in shock. We both started laughing yet almost crying. It wasn’t that I was going to be Prego it was it wasn’t what we had planned. So anyways I guess fate decided that now was the time and that is that. We will find out in a few weeks if I’m Prego or not. Then once I find out I want a U/S to find out if we are having a singleton or twins again. Just another day in my ever changing life : )
6.17.2012
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