Twins and TERRIFIED

Twins and TERRIFIED blog

I need to get it out and maybe talk it through so I can make it through the next 5 painstaking weeks until my next appt. I found out on Wednesday that we're expecting twins. While at first I was really excited (secretly I always used to say I wanted twins but honestly never thought it would ACTUALLY happen. I guess god is funny that way!). I'm now 9 weeks along, we saw and heard two healthy heartbeats, and both babies are measuring within 2 days of each other so I have no REAL basis for my worry. Now my mind has started going through all of the terrifying things that could go wrong like vanishing twin syndrome, if something is wrong, how we will handle 4 (I have two children already), etc. I'm having trouble sleeping over all of this and I can't get it out of my head. I did this with my first as well with my son and DH basically banished me from the internet (for good reason) because I couldn't stop. We've told my family but I'm scared to tell everyone else yet since its still so early however I know they'd be good support should something happen. I just don't want to tell them, only to break bad news later if it arose. My family is SO excited and I wish I could be too but I know it won't happen until the next appt when I'm out of the first trimester. I'm also debating about whether or not to call and maybe move up my appt just so I don't have to wait as long but is that just to crazy? This outlet is nice because I don't have to face anyone directly in case something goes wrong but hopefully there is support and maybe someone knows what I'm going through and can reassure me things will be ok. In my heart I know they will be no matter what I just can't help but WORRY.
6.15.2012

Member Comments About this Blog Entry

	"First of all congrats!! Second, I think that your reaction is a normal one. Most people don't expect to be having twins when they find out they are pregnant. I know I would be thinking of all the same things you are. I had a friend up in Alaska who found out when they went in for their ultrasound to find out the gender that they were having twins- and it was a huge adjustment. Try to relax, and give yourself some time just to adjust to the thought of having two babies. I am a firm believer that ..." -- KKAZ_17

	"I know what you're going through... I'm pregnant with just one, but after ten years of trying to conceive and a miscarriage last year, worry is all I know! My sister, who went through two miscarriages before having a healthy baby gave me some good advice. She said, "Repeat after me: Today I am pregnant." All you can do is take it one day at a time. If you have no reason for worry today, rejoice in that you're doing all you can to maintain a healthy pregnancy. How you will deal with 4 child..." -- 1FRANCIS1