Afraid

Afraid blog

I found out June 13, 2012 that I am pregnant for the first time. After struggling with Polycystic ovary syndrome for the past 6 years, I was elated to finally become pregnant, without fertility drugs!
But with that elation comes something else that I totally didn't expect. Fear.
I'm afraid I'll gain too much weight. I'm afraid there will be complications or that I will lose the baby. I'm afraid I may not want to be a mom once "baby Johnson" gets here. I'm afraid my baby will be sick, or will have a disease or birth defect. I'm afraid my husband will get fed up with my big belly and seek affection elsewhere. I'm afraid i'll fail at motherhood, or that something will happen to me and I won't be able to be a mom for my child.
So many fears are racing in my head. I just want to calm down and enjoy this special time.
6.15.2012

Member Comments About this Blog Entry

	"Thanks so much! The anxiety/depression went away in my 12th week!" -- PIRATESTACY81

	"I know all those feelings all too well! Don't worry, it's hormones and those feelings all pass! I am now 12 weeks 3 days with our third, and had a period where I was severely depressed a few weeks ago...it lasted a couple weeks. I had it with my twins pregnancy too. Congratulations and remember things get better! :)" -- TWINGIRLSROCK