|Less Interesting in Second Pregnancy blog
I have been very slack in keeping this blog updated. In fact I have been slack in a lot of things regarding this pregnancy.
I find I am a little baffled about this pregnancy. For my first pregnancy I was so excited. For the entire time I wanted to do nothing but talk/think baby. This time around I find I am a bit more distracted and not quite as interested in it all as I was with my first.
Is it just because I feel like I have done it all before?
I still want to have a healthy baby and I do think about the baby growing within me quite often, I just don't seem to think about it like it's the whole world yet.
I am afraid that my son will get jealous of this new baby, and maybe that is why I am not focusing so much on it. We have tried explaining to my son that he is going to be a big brother but he's only two and a half and doesn't get it yet. We continue to talk with him about it though.
I am also more tired this time around. Chasing my toddler all day leaves me with much less energy to spend lost in LaLa Land.
People aren't as interested in this pregnancy as they were my first one either. My parents and in-laws and everyone was all up on the fact that I was pregnant the first time. This time everyone has sort of been like, "Oh, that's nice." It's not like we are always having another baby, it has been three years since I was pregnant before and there are no other grandchildren stealing the attention, only our son.
I think a big thing is that I am not showing yet. I am overweight to begin with and being 15 weeks my belly isn't showing through my flab so I don't really look at myself and think that I am pregnant. I wonder if other people sort of feel the same way about this pregnancy? I can't wait for my belly to start to show and then I think my feelings towards being pregnant will completely change.