The Million Dollar Question.....

The Million Dollar Question..... blog

Does it feel real?

Yesterday my OB posed that question at my 24 wk (ish) appt. No, not really. I get up, I go to work, I have some extra back pain, spend the evening with my husband, but it does not feel real. Honestly, that doesn't make sense. How much more real can you get than a persistant gyration of your insides, a ever growing belly, exhaustion by 8pm, more Dr appts than I've had in 6 yrs, the fact that Logan can feel this kiddo kicking me. I didn't have an immediate and unconditional love for our jumping bean the moment I peed on a stick and saw "pregnant". (Yeah, I'm not screwing with lines, make it without a doubt obvious, please!)

It still seems abstract, something I can intellectually understand, but can't grasp the reality of. LOL I'm still shocked when I see my reflection. My sister-in-law wrote lovely little notes to my nephew in utero, which are sweet and fun to read. I tried it. I couldn't come up with a thing. Blank stares at a blank page.

The best thing was my OB, whom I think is hilarious, said she felt that way too and didn't really feel the bonding until her children were born. Hallelujah, another woman wired like me!

5.30.2012

Member Comments About this Blog Entry

	"Awesome, thank you so much! It's good to know that even after birth it might take a day or 2. I had not thought of that. I really appreciate you sharing!" -- NURSE11EMS

	"I felt the same way. I was mad at myself for the longest time because I didn't have that moment of crazy unconditional love. I thought I would have it right away after getting pregnant - nope - I thought once I started feeling her move - nope - I thought (for sure) the moment she was born I would feel it - nope! I honestly didn't have that connection until my daughter was a few days old. The delivery and visitors took up so much time and work... it wasn't until I got home from the hospital a..." -- REBAPOZO