...yes, so it was either the wonderful camping and climbing weekend I had with my husband and dog to get my soul back to nature, or it is the fact that I just started my second tri-mester, but whatever it may be, I feel like a different person. I have energy to go running, I am not tired the moment I wake up and I am finally excited about the little baby growing inside of me! Yesterday was another appointment and the doctor used the dopler to hear the heart beat - it was comical to me, becuase it still didn't hit me - I still didn't cry, I didn't get so excited I couldn't stand it, the doctor smiled at me and asked if I could hear it and on cue, I realized I should smile and be excited. Ha, made me laugh and then made me think that she thought I was insensitive for not being more excited - and you know, it just made me laugh more, it didnt' make me feel bad! And that is a huge step for me! I didn't let what I thought she was thinking get me down, I happily laughed it off! I gained about 2 pounds since my last visit, which was a month ago, but I feel pretty all right with that. I mean, my diet changed (I wasn't even motivated to eat well!) and I stopped working out. But I am happy to report, I felt like cooking again last night and now that the house will be stocked with awesome groceries (sending the hubby out today to get them!), I will be prepared to eat well again and gain my weight wisely. Sure, I am still going to eat some Taco Bell and deep fried poppers, but maybe that is what the baby wants! :)
So, yes, I feel good, I am excited, I can finally tell people. I don't have to just feel like I am getting fat, I have the motivation to work out and keep myself moving. I have the motivation to just take this second tri-mester by storm and face it with all the positive thoughts I am feeling today. I am done being worried about others, I will worry about me, baby and husband - oh and our dog!
It is a great feeling to finally tell everyone - it seems funny to me to wait (I get why), however, it seems like I wish people would have known when I wanted to just lay down and was crabby a few weeks ago, instead I had to try and hide and fight that. BUt what can you do, now I am moving forward and I am ready to move forward! Hooray, I am excited about the baby and that feels very good! :)
5.23.2012
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