Feeling Crazy

Feeling Crazy blog

So I've had this overwheming feeling that something is wrong and I have absolutely no reason to think that! I've prayed about it and tried giving my worries over to God but my mind finds itself wondering back to "what-ifs"
I have to two children 8 and 9 and when I was pregnant with them I had very great pregnancies! I was young (19 and 20) I threw up once with each pregnancy and I had some pretty bad dry heaves with my second but all in all I knew I loved being pregnant! I have never had a miscarriage either. I
So why am I feeling like this? I don't know if it's because it's been 10 years since I've been pregnant and maybe it's just nerves? Or most likely it's because I was young then and very naive to all the complications that can arise when one is pregnant! I had no idea that so many people have a hard time TTC!!! Now I read and hear about so many people and all the struggles they have and I think that is what scares me!
My first two children were not planned and this baby is so I am thinking maybe I'm just getting that "too good to be true" feeling...I shouldn't tho...I deserve this...my husband deserves this...but I still feel this way??? My appt isn't until May 12th...I know once I see the baby and hear the heartbeat that I will feel a sigh of relief....but until then...
...I will continue to pray that everything is alright and that I'm just thinking WAY TOO MUCH INTO THINGS! LOL "Chill out Ashley!!!"

5.3.2011

Member Comments About this Blog Entry

	"I understand how you feel. Once I heard the heartbeat I was fine. You could get a monitor for your belly and listen to all the sounds and the thumps and the heart beat. It is really assuring at times. I am not too far ahead of you 22 wks and 3 days. Take care." -- LOVEBABY11

	"It really is ridiculous! I keep telling myself I've had two perfectly perfect pregnancies and two wonderful kids to show for it! I don't have any reason to think this pregnancy would be any different!" -- MRSMARTIN612

	"I've actually felt the exact same way this time around!! I only have one son but had him almost 9 years ago when I was 21 and like you think I must not have realized then how hard it is for some people. My son wasn't planned and this one is. I have gone through the same worrying, questioning, etc. with this pregnancy. It's enough to drive yourself crazy sometimes!" -- MEJEST