So I think I have hit that I'm just big and done stage. I try really hard to be positive but with my nesting and spending itch kicking in when I really shouldn't be doing so much its just REALLY difficult. My back hurts almost constantly between the sciatic nerves, the angle at which I sit, walk or stand, and the weight in front. I've resorted to tylenol several times now just to try and relieve some of the pain. My friends are all trying to be really nice about it but honestly my moods are getting worse too so when they make "nice" comments I know they're just humoring me. Its ok I'm just praying the next 8-12 weeks go by REALLY quickly and I can make it through without killing myself, my back or someone else who happens to get in my way that day. I just realized how much I'm whining on this blog but its my way of relieving my frustration because if you talked to me in person I rarely complain.
I have my 28 week appt tomorrow and they'll be checking baby A's fluid levels. They were getting towards low two weeks ago and if it continues to go lower or she starts not thriving it will mean bed rest for me. I have 7 (really 5 if you take out our breaks) more weeks left of school and praying I can just make it through. I've been able to handle the class work pretty well its just the physical getting to class that is getting difficult and trying to get my group for my group project to ACTUALLY get together and do a good job on our deliverables. I feel like we've mostly half-a$$ed stuff until now but no one else seems to care. The last one we haven't gotten our grades back so I'm nervous to see what it is. The next deliverable my group just wants to split it up and do different parts however the deliverables aren't really set up to do that too well so I've considered just starting it on my own and adding to it when everyone else is ready to work. Its due in 2 weeks, there's a lot of work to be done on it and we haven't even started.
Once again this was just a venting kind of post but really though I am thankful I've made it this far and hoping the babies and I can make it to the end without anymore complications and we'll have our two healthy little girls.
10.28.2012
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I need to get it out and maybe talk it through so I can make it through the next 5 painstaking weeks until my next appt. I found out on Wednesday that we're expecting twins. While at first I was really excited (secretly I always used to say I wanted twins but honestly never thought it would ACTUALLY happen. I guess god is funny that way!). I'm now 9 weeks along, we saw and heard two healthy heartbeats, and both babies are measuring within 2 days of each other so I have no REAL basis for my worry. Now my mind has started going through all of the terrifying things that could go wrong like vanishing twin syndrome, if something is wrong, how we will handle 4 (I have two children already), etc. I'm having trouble sleeping over all of this and I can't get it out of my head. I did this with my first as well with my son and DH basically banished me from the internet (for good reason) because I couldn't stop. We've told my family but I'm scared to tell everyone else yet since its still so early however I know they'd be good support should something happen. I just don't want to tell them, only to break bad news later if it arose. My family is SO excited and I wish I could be too but I know it won't happen until the next appt when I'm out of the first trimester. I'm also debating about whether or not to call and maybe move up my appt just so I don't have to wait as long but is that just to crazy? This outlet is nice because I don't have to face anyone directly in case something goes wrong but hopefully there is support and maybe someone knows what I'm going through and can reassure me things will be ok. In my heart I know they will be no matter what I just can't help but WORRY.
6.15.2012
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"First of all congrats!! Second, I think that your reaction is a normal one. Most people don't expect to be having twins when they find out they are pregnant. I know I would be thinking of all the same things you are. I had a friend up in Alaska who found out when they went in for their ultrasound to find out the gender that they were having twins- and it was a huge adjustment. Try to relax, and give yourself some time just to adjust to the thought of having two babies. I am a firm believer that ..." -- KKAZ_17
"I know what you're going through... I'm pregnant with just one, but after ten years of trying to conceive and a miscarriage last year, worry is all I know! My sister, who went through two miscarriages before having a healthy baby gave me some good advice. She said, "Repeat after me: Today I am pregnant." All you can do is take it one day at a time. If you have no reason for worry today, rejoice in that you're doing all you can to maintain a healthy pregnancy. How you will deal with 4 child..." -- 1FRANCIS1
This is a little late and I'm a little rusty on the details but I wanted to put it out there that you CAN have a successful VBAC delivery and I'm proof! My son was a long hard labor that ended in C-section. In my case I knew there could be a good chance I would end up with another c-section but because of my stubborn self and after reading and researching it turns out successful VBACs are ACTUALLY safer in most cases then a repeat c-section. Mainly it is because a c-section is major surgery and for most women the odds of tearing your scar line is VERY slim. So onto the story. Its not nearly as exciting as my son but that is a good thing. I was one day past my due date and scheduled with my doctor to come in to be induced as I was tired of being pregnant, I could hardly walk because it felt like my daughter was going to fall out of me. I also found out that a friend of mine (albeit happy for her) went into labor and had her son on my due date with a 3 hour labor and was about 2 weeks BEHIND me. That was the last straw. I had been resisting any intervention like pitocin and managed to avoid it with my son, so I was hoping to do the same with my daughter. When I was checked by the nurse before the induction started the nurse told me she could stretch me to 5 cm however I was in no way in labor. Knowing that, I managed to convince my doctor to, instead of inducing, to just break my water to see if that would get things moving along. Well it did. I walked for as much as I could (you must be monitored more when you're going for a VBAC) and really only had about 15 to 20 minutes of almost unbearable contractions. I did not get the epidural so this was all natural minus the water being broken. My labor lasted a total from my water breaking to having my daughter almost 6 hours in total with about 45 minutes of pushing. While I still had a cervical lip hindering my daughter to come out, similar to my son, it was not swollen so my doctor was able to push it out of the way and voila! My daughter was born. She was healthy and happy and I was happy to get my VBAC. The lesson I learned in all of this was I thought for sure a vaginal birth would be far easier then a c-section. Yes, in some cases it was, however in some cases it was not. I did tear with a 2nd degree rip so I had to be stitched up and later I had to be cathed so I could finally pee again. I also almost passed out a couple of times trying to get to the bathroom because I lost a lot of blood during labor. Because of the stitches down there, the recovery did seem to take longer and I was uncomfortable for much longer than with the stitches from my c-section. I guess I just don't have the "easy" births that some women are lucky enough to get. My mom always thinks I have to do everything "the hard way" but its because I like a challenge and always have. If someone tells me "you can't", I tell them "watch me". So the moral is while I'm happy that I overcame my challenge. I'm more happy that I have two healthy children no matter how they came into this world.
6.14.2012
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After being monitored most of the day last Friday to check on the baby (which would have been the 1st) I started to have regular contractions and they started to hurt a bit. During the monitoring they took my bp and watched the baby's heart rate and around 3:30 both were looking much better then the morning so I had a choice of being induced then or go home. I chose go home. My mom, DH and I went home had some dinner and were about to go on a small walk when while I was putting my shoes on my water broke. So I called the doctor and she told me to go on ahead in. To make a long story short I labored through the entire night with NO pain meds until finally in the morning I was 10ish cm (there was a little bit of a cervix lip). I pushed for 2 hours but still no baby and the lip was not going away. By that point I was pretty exhausted and the dr. told me that she was pretty sure the lip was not going to leave so I had the option of an epidural to possibly help and then if it didn't a c-section. Well I got the epidural and it at least gave me about 3 hours of sleep, but the lip was still there. They then wheeled me into the c-section room and my baby boy was born at 3:31pm in the afternoon on his due date (June 2nd)!! It turns out that my pelvis is most likely misshaped to have a normal delivery because Cameron had a nice big bruise on his forehead even though he was in perfect position. They don't know for sure though because of the lip. After 4 days in the hospital we've been home since yesterday and are now recovering very well. Although my birth story didn't go as planned I'm very thankful for my healthy baby boy and would do it all again in a heart beat for him.
6.6.2007
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