We just stopped and looked at eachother in disbelief. Kailey said in the midst of her babbling, "Dada" so we thought it was a fluke. So I said it back to her and she repeated it! So amazing to hear her little voice. She says it now everyday, and when I say "where's dada?" or "Dada's home," she smile or laugh and say "dada". She doesnt really know what it means but we're working on it :)
Marking it down in the baby book !!!! lol
I cannot believe she is over 8 months already! Where has the time gone??
2.2.2013
"How cute is that:) I completely understand what you mean by seeing it all through a baby's eyes! Life is so much more magical when you are seeing it with them!!! I live for those moments when he does something new and sees something for the first time! It is amazing! It is adorable that she is now talking...so sweet!" -- ANGIESEDMAK
We are Good busy though!
I cannot believe how time is flying by but we are managing to enjoy every minute of it. I have to say Ryan and I are just still on a high from having Kailey. We love being her parents. It has been so much fun and so very rewarding when she giggles, smiles, and laughs at us.
We are both working, both of us have some opportunities at our jobs, Ryan and I both have different positions that we are looking into taking. It is just a matter of letting God tell us and guide us to which ones are the best for us. Whether it is the current ones we are in or the open/available ones with a bit more pay but different hours and things that would have to be right for our time with Kailey. So we are trying to leave it up to God and figure if it is meant to be we will be offered them!
I am back in school, part time online. The flexibility has really allowed me to spend the most time with Kailey possible and when she goes to bed or is taking a nap I can get my homework and studying done! :)
This past weekend we went to "Boo in the Zoo" at Brookfield Zoo and it was so much fun. A bit cold but we had Kailey all bundled up. She loved looking at all the people and kids. She obviously didnt really pay too much attention to the animals, except she did like the underwater viewing where the dolphins were (which is one of my favorites too). We pretty much figured it would be for us, but who knows maybe it will be a tradition as a family to do for years to come! I have to say I am just so lucky to have Ryan, even though it was a bit cold, sometimes windy, we still have fun together and enjoy being with eachother.
For those that don't have kids yet or are expecting and have heard that you grow apart, I really want to encourage you and say that for us that is not the case. Now, that isn't to say that our relationship wasn't challenged especially at times when we were first adjusting to everything at home after delivery (roles, helping each other, finding out what each other needed at times, etc). But honestly if you have the right partner for you, I hope you don’t get discouraged or fearful of what life will be like with your spouse after having kid(s). I know I let a lot of people (including my own family) tell me how things were going to be and they actually caused a bit of fear in me. And I am glad that fear was quickly put out with talking with my husband and reassuring each other that we would love each other and make time for each other to still hold our relationship as a priority.
We both cannot imagine life any other way. We love our little family, Ryan, me, Kailey, and the doggies!
We are working on finishing up our house. We only have to paint the bathroom and our bedroom and put in the last counter top and we are DONE with remodeling :). We will be putting it on the market and seeing how that goes! Hopefully by next spring/summer we can move.We found a house we both really love, but we had to get the rest of our house done, we need to rent a storage unit, pack up some stuff, get our house ready for showing, and wait until after the holidays.
So busy busy busy...but like I said all Good Busy! :)
10.29.2012
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"Couldn't agree more about how having a child does not need to change everything or make it tougher etc We are closer than ever thank God and Abdullah has literally made everything we do a thousand times more fun Bless him! Hope you get your house done (and sold!) ASAP :)" -- ANGE_AHMED
"So happy to hear updates! I'm glad that things are going well!!! She is adorable!" -- ANGIESEDMAK
My mom and sister have been making me feel really bad about going back to work and putting Kailey in a home daycare. Ryan and I went and spoke to the woman and she seems like a really nice woman. She was a pre-school teacher for 10 years prior to starting this in home daycare. She will have kailey and a 6 month old and a 1 year old and I guess 1-2 older kids that will be downstairs in her basement away from Kailey and the younger ones. My sister especially is making me feel like the worst mother. I'm already dreading the day of going back to work and dropping her off at daycare. Thankfully with Ryan's rotating schedule she will only have to go a couple times a week and some months there are only a few times a month she'll have to go, like for example...August she will only have to go a total of 7 days for the month!
Uggh. Just had to say I'm dreading it and not really appreciating how my mom and sis are making me feel.
:(
On a much happier note. I am so enjoying Kailey and every minute of being her mommy! I'll put up more pics soon, she is getting so big and changing everyday.
7.24.2012
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"I run a home daycare and LOVE the kiddos that I watch! I heard a fellow teacher say that working made her a better mom - she really appreciated every moment with her kids when she was home and got her adult time too. Using a sitter is a good thing:) I sure love the kids that I watch and we have so much fun together! I hope all is going well!" -- ANGIESEDMAK
"awww that going back to work is so tough. I can't imagine doing it so soon! We get a full year in canada and it is so helpful to feel like they are more independent. The one thing I would say is just try to be as observant as you can when you are there and trust your gut. If something doesn't feel right find someone else. There are alot of good child care providers out there!
And I'm so sorry your sis/mom are making you feel that way - its super hard going back to work and they should be supp..." -- KASONSMOMMA82
I'm finally taking some time to write this. Sorry for taking so long everyone!
Well, on Monday May 21st I went in and my bp was too high and was uncontrollable even with the meds so my dr. said enough and was just concerned about my health and Kailey's health so he informed me I had until 5pm to go to the hospital so they could start to induce me. It ws quite nice becuase I had time to go home, we finished up a couple of things we wanted to do before having her and spent some time together and then headed to the hospital.
They put my IV in, drew blood, and then put the balloon catheter in to start helping my cervix dialate. They said the balloon would help me dialate to about 4cm and they would check me the next morning. I was comfortable until about midnight and then I started feeling some contractions, I kept breathing through them, trying to relax/lay down and let Ryan sleep. Until about 3:30am or so I really did just need some pain meds, so Ryan called the nurse and she gave me morphine which really did take the edge off and brough the contractions back down to a reasonable pain level that I could breathe through. By that time my contractions were about 2-3 minutes apart and were lasting about 40-50 seconds each. I had such nice nurses, they were really such a blessing, all of them were very sweet from those that admitted me to the ones on my day to go home with kailey. Ryan was so amazing too because as soon as he heard me around 3:30am in more pain he got up and he was the one that actually decided to call the nurse for some type of pain relief for me, I was actually going to try and make it until the morning around 7 or 8am when my ob was going to come and check my progression and take the balloon out but it was good that he called because I was able to breathe through the contractions and go back to just enjoying the process. Ryan left around 4am to run home really quick, feed the dogs and let them out. My ob came in around 8:30am and checked me, at that time I was about 4cm, he took the balloon out, broke my water and then started the pitosin to really get things going. I went a few more hours and he came back and checked me, he said I progressed to about a 5 and that he thought around noon we would have her. So at that time I got the epidural just so I wouldn't miss the time where I could get it, I didn't want to take a chance of waiting too long to get it, I never want to feel it just in case I were to tear. So we got that all going and I kept eating my ice chips. Which really helped me from 3:30am on, it really helped to chomp on those right after a contraction, I would breathe,moan a bit, and then chomp on an ice chip which reaaly helped for some reason. I actually just enjoyed the whole process, I know I probably sound crazy but I really enjoyed labor, in part probably because it was such a huge bonding time with my hubby. So around noon my ob came back and checked me again I was only 5 1/2 cm and so he said hopefully by 3pm we'd have her. They had me sit straight up in the bed which they hoped would allow gravity to make her head push on my cervix even more and open it up more and progress past the 5 1/2. Sadly by 3pm when he checked me I was still at 5 1/2 cm and he said since my bp was sky high and uncontrollable he said it was time to just do a c-section. I tried to smile but I ended up tearing up a bit and couldn't help but being scared and also being a bit disappointed but overall I knew that it needed to be done becuase my health and hers were more important. So I just tried to relax. My husband was amazing, he was there by my side through everything. The only time he left was to tell my mom, sister, and his mom who were out in the waiting room what was happening. Then he was right back by my side. My nurse and tech were running around trying to get me all set to go in for the c-section asap. They were trying to explain everything to me but since I hadn't slept and my body was already exhausted and I was scared, I kept nodding off, I kept trying to keep my eyes open but it was like my body was shutting off, it was crazy! I remember Ryan kept asking if I was ok becuase it scared him that I was shutting down like that. They wheeled me to the operating room and had him wait in the waiting room for a bit, I dont know how long, I was in and out, I remember my body shaking uncontrollably and that scared him when he came in, I kept telling him "I'm ok, it's just the meds." But apparently the nurses and the anestesiologist were talking out loud about my bp and how they really needed to get it under control, I guess it was dropping really low and then shooting up really high. Ryan held my hand through everything, they pulled Kailey out and Ryan was able to peek over and see all her hair. The cleaned her up and handed her to Ryan, we took pictures and they started closing me back up. Something that is so amazingly sweet about Ryan is that when he was told he could go with Kailey, he said he would but he wanted to wait until I was closed up because he was scared about my bp and even then he asked what I wanted him to do, I told him to go ahead and go with her, so he got to hold her little hand while she had all her tests and such. It was just an amazing day and such an awesome experience, I would do it all over again! They held her up right after they delivered her and asked us to guess how much she weighed, I guessed 6 1/2 lbs. I can't remember exactly what Ryan guessed, 7 something I think. She weighed 6lbs 3ozs and was 19 1/2 inches long. She was all healthy, she just needed some sugar water becuase she had a bit of low blood sugar, but the sugar water corrected that immediately. Otherwise, everything was perfect with her. I went into recovery in my room with just my nurse for an hour while she did a bunch of electronic paperwork, monitored my bp, monitored my iv, my pain level, and everything about my recovery before bringing Ryan in. He was very caring and such an amazing supporter, he stuck by my side again after that. Ever since he has been taking care of me. The nurse told me that since I got up, walked the halls, got my catheter out early becuase I was able and willing to walk to the bathroom, I made my recovery alot better. I got up and was able to take a shower the next afternoon, they took the pitosin out at that time too, and since I was drinking lots of water and emptying very well, I could also get my IV taken out..all within 24 hours after. I am finally feeling quite a bit better and a lot less in pain today, but I still notice it if I dont take my pain meds, then I really hurt. My husband has really been a big part in my recovery becuase he has done everything, he says I do too much as it is but I have to get up and do some stuff. We have both really enjoyed everything, we stay up together, watch tv, enjoy her, and she has actually started sleep a lot (for a baby) at night. Like last night she slept from midnight until about 2 and then had her diaper changed and a bottle and went back to bed until 6am. We are loving this time together. However he is still really scared becuase my bp which was great the day after I delivered but then shot up in my sleep the next night according to the monitors at the hospital. I've been checking it at home and it has been even higher than before I got pregnant. Like today it was 157/110, my ob keeps trying to treat it but Ryan convinced me to go to his dr. a general practitioner to see what he says and possibly get referred to a specialist if necessary. But my ob just keeps uping my meds and hasnt tried changing the meds. I appreciate him trying but he said he wants to see me weekly until we get this under control, I just am going to see what Ryan's dr. says as a second opinion. Otherwise my ob said that I am healing quite nicely from my c-section...so there is much to be thankful for.
6.1.2012
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"OMG congrats!! She is gorgeous and so deserved! She is so worth the wait=)" -- JK1102
"I've wanted to say thank you to you guys for all the sweet comments about my story and for the well wishes you guys always give us!" -- KELLY42105
"Congratulations!!! I have taken a look at your page a few times as you know and was wondering how things were going! So happy to hear you're all doing well! I hope your BP gets back to normal very soon! And sounds like you have an amazing hubby!" -- ANGE_AHMED
"What a story!' Sounds similar to mine with Kason! I remember thinking the moment I was holding him that even after all the stuff we went through I would do it again in a heartbeat. She is absolutely beautiful and I am just crying thinking about you guys! I'm glad to hear you are recovering well, I was the same after my c-section, up as soon as they would let me and it made a huge difference in my recovery. MAKE SURE TO TAKE IT EASY at home though. The 6 weeks they say doing nothing but taking c..." -- KASONSMOMMA82
"Wow - what a beautiful picture of your family! What an amazing moment! I'm sorry that things didn't quite go as planned (I guess life always has curve balls for us) but I'm thrilled that she is here in your arms and you are both doing OK! I can't wait to see more pictures of that sweet little girl! I am so happy to hear her birth story and can't wait for updates:) Congratulations!!!!!" -- ANGIESEDMAK
Well since I am using the kindle to type this my last post got cut off and I cant get to where I can edit it lol...so for now I will just sit here and watch the bachelorette with Ryan since he's back from letting the dogs out. Keep us in your thoughts and prayers! I will keep you all posted as I can and will post my baby girl's birth story as soon as possible. :)
5.21.2012
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"Aww thank you guys! I appreciate your support and well wishes. I finally gave an update...finally :)" -- KELLY42105
"Congratulations and I'm really excited for an update!!" -- ANGE_AHMED
"EEEEKKK - congrats lady!!! So happy to hear she has arrived safely! Hope you and your family are doing well :)" -- KASONSMOMMA82
Well I am at the hospital now. My bloodpressure is all over the place and not staying down so at my appointment today my Dr. had me come to the hospital around 5pm which was nice because after my appt got done around 1:30 we were able to go back home and spend some time with our puppies, grab some food, finish a couple of things we wanted finished around the house and before we bring her home. It was especially nice getting to spend some time with our dogs as like Ryan said it's the last bit of time with just them and us......very exciting!
so since I am about 37 weeks and 3 days they feel pretty confidant that she'll do fine with breathing and everything, which is what I am praying for. So far everything with her seems good, I just hope it continues that way. I am excited yet of course a bit nervous, Ryan is being such a great support already.
So since I wasn't dialated or anything yet they did all their fancy bloodwork, got an IV going and inserted a balloon catheter to start opening my cervix which is causing more contractions and some cramping as to be expected. Some are more painful that others but nothing too horrible....can't complain yet lol even though I think Kailey is, she is moving like crazy right now which is actually causing quite a bit of pain....the poor thing must feel some contractions that I am having right now. So they are going to give my cervix time to open up to the 3 or 4 centimeters that balloon reaches until tomorrow morning when around 5am they are going to give me pitosin to really get active laborious started and break my water which I have to say I am actually a bit nervous about because I have heard that can be quite uncomfortable but I have to say so was when the were inserting the catheter so hopefully I can breathe through that too.
We are both excited and nervous a bit! We told our families and they said they'd come out tomorrow but we both agree this is time we really want together until after she is here. I actually just want to labor with my husband here, so we've been honest with them and as of right now it seems like most are saying they'll come around 10am which if they start the pitosin at 5am who knows at that time I probably will still be laboring so hopefully they keep that in mind. I hate to ban them to the waiting room but for now since it's our first we just want to see how everything goes and not have a bunch of personalities in the same room that don't always mix well and like Ryan said some comments about their schedules have been made and he feels like right now this should be a time of focusing on my health and Kailey's health especially because of the bloodpressure
5.21.2012
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Well....my head is killing me right now, so I am just quickly updating on here.
I went in for my regular dr. appt on Thursday and my bloodpressure was 175/125 and the immediately had Ryan take me over to the hospital to labor and delivery to be observed overnight and to see if they could stabalize it becuase I told them it had been shooting up high even when laying around at home and yet would drop at different times. Very confusing. So they ddi a bunch of tests on Thursday and Friday, thankfully everything is completely fine with Kailey. I was having contractions quite often but they have slowed a bit and lessened in intensity so they feel confident in letting me go another week or so since I have to go in for my dr.'s appt's on Mondays and Thursday's anyway. But I have a feeling they will induce me this Friday becuase they didnt have me set any appt.'s after this Thursday. But, who knows. I am just so thankful that everything with her is completely fine, they did a complete ultrasound and actually did a specific kind of ultrasound where they watch for her to "breath" or practice breathing and move her legs/hands and different things like that, everything she did and even more than they needed :) I am very thankful for that!
I unfortunately have to now be off work, so yesterday starts my FMLA leave of which I only have 10 weeks so I am looking into short term disability to be with her for a little while longer after she is born.
I am quite excited to have her here but just want everything to go smoothly these next few weeks. My hubby has been so amazing and has been doing everything. We are just laying around with our pups, watching movies together, and laying out in our backyard on our lounger.
But my head is actually hurting quite a bit and can't look at the computer screen much more so I am going to lay back down now.
Take care everyone, I will keep everyone posted!
5.19.2012
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"so sorry to hear about your blood pressure and that your not feeling well but glad the Little one is ok! Take care of yourself and I think you'll be holding that sweet babe before May is done!!!" -- KASONSMOMMA82
So I had my ultrasound this past Wednesday, like I wrote about in my last blog entry. It was such an amazing time.
The next day, I had my other weekly appointment (I go Monday's and Thursday's) where they do a non-stress test and check her heart beat and her movements and any contractions.
Well, like I've been saying lately she has been quite a bit more lazy. She wasn't moving around hardly at all, I guess she was relaxing and sleeping :) well....they wanted to see how her heartbeat was when she moves. They always have me press a button when I feel her move, they watch for her heartrate to increase with her movements and decrease to a relaxed state when she stops moving around.
So to wake her up they put this little buzzer thing that I have never seen before on my belly for a second and pressed a button on it. It buzzed and sent sonic waves in through my belly to the fluid around her. The poor thing her heart rate shot up from like 135-140 to about 180+. They definetly woke her up. The nurse even commented "i didnt want to scare the heck out of her, just wake her a bit" She was scared like that until the end of the appointment when she finally started calming down. She was probably in there looking around and trying to listen to figure out what the heck was moving her water bed like that. The poor little thing, I promised her I would give her an extra kiss when she comes out for that.
After they "buzzed" me, the nurse commented on how I was having so many more strong braxton hicks contractions. Which I felt kind of stupid, I had always thought that tight, balled up fist feeling at the very top of my belly was Kailey pushing up with her foot or something, but that is actually the tightening of a contraction they talk about. I told her those dont hurt they just feel tight and like a little fist up in there. She felt the next time she saw it on the machine and confirmed that yup that was what I was feeling was a braxton hicks contraction.
I told her what I thought was more painful (but not bad) was the cramping gas bubble feeling I get low that wraps around my belly and sometimes makes my back ache a bit. She told me those were the one's they dont want me to feel, becuase those are actually contractions starting. I am not dialating or opening or anything yet but ever since that buzzer thing I am defintely noticing them much more. I still feel the tightening braxton hicks but I really do notice the cramping feeling, I actually get a bit nauseous right before I get the cramping feeling and then it all goes away. I cannot time them or anything and they only last for a few brief seconds so as of right now they are not doing anything yet, but I am wondering if they will calm down again or if I could be looking at having her here soon!
Very exciting and all such a new thing for me, I never knew what it was that I was actually feeling.
My feet have actually been swelling much more, which I have been so lucky to not have until the last two days. I am just hoping they dont want to make her come out by inducing her this soon. I hope we can wait until the date they were thinking of inducing which is June 1st, for her sake. I just want her to be as healthy as possible, hopefully she can get some more weight on her before coming out so she doesnt have any problems!
Looking forward to enjoying these next few weeks and seeing what they bring and when they bring Kailey into our arms!
We shall see what they say at the next weekly visit(s) this coming Monday and Thursday!
5.5.2012
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"What an amazing thing to have her respond to a buzzer like that - I know her reaction wasn't exactly "good" but it is so neat that she reacted at all! It always amazes me that the baby can hear your voice and noises around you before they are even born! WOW!
I'm hoping that she will hang tight for a few more weeks until June 1st!" -- ANGIESEDMAK
"So exciting! Can't wait to hear your birth story and see pics of you holding your baby girl!!!!" -- KASONSMOMMA82
We had our ultrasound yesterday to check the fluid around Kailey and how her growth and measurements were.
It was so amazing getting to see her, she looks just like a little baby now! In fact the ultrasound tech and I couldn't help but notice from what Kailey looks like on the monitor she looks a bit like Ryan. Her mouth especially.
There is one ultrasound pic of Kailey that she looks quite a bit like Ryan did in one of his baby pictures! :)
We were very happy to hear that the fluid around her is great, still around 17 cm. and when it gets down around 6 is when they begin to worry...so we are no where near that.
But what I was most excited about, even though I know it is only an estimate, but I was most excited to hear that she thinks she weighs around 5 lbs 7 oz. That was so cool to hear, I wonder what she will be when she gets here!?!
They lady pointed out you could even see some hair on her head! How cool!!
I cannot wait to meet her and she her face to face but it is so amazing knowing that she is doing just fine where she is at!
The lady said that Kailey is measuring right on or one day ahead in all her measurements (her body, her head, her length, etc).
Her heart beat was 140 and she is still head down and being more lazy...probably getting ready to make her debut within the next couple of weeks!
We are pretty much ready, we just have to get a couple more things...small things, so we are all set for her! I cannot wait to see Ryan hold her!
I will post the latest ultrasound pics which will be her last set of pictures before she is here!!!
5.3.2012
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"Thank you Angie, it was really awesome to get to see her again, once more before she is actually here :) I cannot wait." -- KELLY42105
"That is just amazing! It is the neatest thing that you can see her in the ultrasound pictures looking very much like she will once she arrives! What a neat experience!" -- ANGIESEDMAK
The past few weeks have flown by. I cannot believe I am already 34 weeks as of tomorrow, it went by so fast, I have really enjoyed my pregnancy through it all. I'm very fortunate to meet my little girl soon. Ryan and I keep looking at eachother and just cannot believe it, we are so excited!
Many things have happened and we have enjoyed these past few weeks as well.
I was very pleasantly surprised at work with a baby shower on April 11th, everyone bought us so much, we got bottles, hand made blankets, to baby books, to clothes, etc. A little bit of everything which was very nice, they ordered like 7 different types of pizzas and had chips and salsa and after presents we had cake and punch...it was so nice. It was decorated and everything, I really appreciated it! Everyone is so nice!
I think they have baby fever too :)
And then that Saturday, April 14th was my baby shower that my family was throwing me, which was so very nice too! Everyone got along, no one was really rude to one another (other than some minor things, but that's always to be expected :) ) It was just an awesome day, I really got to talk with everyone, enjoy everyone's company and Ryan and I were so overwhelmed in a good way at how much we got for Kailey! We got so many diapers as well (thanks to my sister with the diaper raffle game, where everyone brought a pack of diapers). My sister in law did a couple of fun games, like where Ryan and I answered questions about certain things...for example "how many times a night do we think Kailey will be up, or how many diapers do we think Kailey will go through dailey at first." those types of questions and everyone had to guess out of the multiple choice answers what Ryan's answer was and what my answer was. Whoever got the most right won a prize. My mom did an amazing job on the cake, I really appreciated her doing that! She helped with planning and set up along with my sister, sister in law, and father in law! Everyone was really great! Ryan and I had a blast! We were so exhausted but we took time on that Sunday to go through everything, organize it, wash things (clothes, toys, pacifiers, etc) and put things away. I was proud of myself becuase I got the thank you cards done and out by the Friday after the shower. :) I really wanted everyone to know just how much it meant to us!
We also spent time together rearranging her room together and putting her wall decorations, like her animal stickers up. It was fun doing it together and I am so glad that Ryan really enjoys being so involved and a part of everything. God has really blessed me. We just recently celebrated our 5th wedding anniversary and our 7th year together anniversary on Sunday, April 22nd. It was a very nice day together, we just relaxed and layed around, ordered dinner from chili's and picked it up and brought it back home to watch movies and tv together with the doggies!
I still go twice a week to the dr's office and yesterday, I asked my primary OB (there are 3 OB dr's in the office I go to) about something the other OB dr had stated previously about not letting me go past my due date becuase of the high risk and high bloodpressure, I just wondered if that was something they were still planning on. He very casually said, "oh yeah, actually at 39 weeks we're going to induce you, we'll check your cervix and see how everything is," if I am already progressing naturally into labor, they'll give me pitosin otherwise he said they will likely break my water and see how it goes from there as to whether I will need pitosin or anything after. So offically that would I guess from what he is saying around June 1st. Eeek about 5 weeks from now! I'm very excited and a bit nervous but mostly excited and anxious. We have another ultrasound next Wednesday, May 2nd, where we will get to see her more, I get weekly quick ultrasounds to check the fluid around her and we catch glimpses of things like head, spine, ribs, and feet but only if my primary OB is the one doing it otherwise the other ones use it strictly as a time to check the fluid around her which has been looking good still! All good news! I am so thankful for that, I just cannot even believe we have finally been blessed with a healthy baby, that's partially why I cannot wait till she's here to just hold her and look and her and see her face to face to know that she is ok and healthy but like I always say, I am just as happy being pregnant!
So we have our maternity pictures scheduled for tomorrow and we both are looking forward to that, like Ryan put it....you're only pregnant with her once, we should really make sure to get them done ASAP. I'm excited about that too and will have to post pictures as soon as I can, I have pictures from the showers as well and her nursery which we are still organizing a few things in but it will show the progression! :)
So today while I am at work, Ryan is going to put together her pack and play and her swing, and her bookshelf. Yay, I cant wait to go home and see those!
4.24.2012
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"I'm so happy to hear that things are going well! I'm glad that the showers went well and that you have what you need for baby Kailey! I can't believe she will be here by June 1st:) YAY - that is so exciting! I can't wait to see your maternity pictures and pictures of her nursery! How fun!!!!" -- ANGIESEDMAK
"So very exciting and just so happy for you (my damn pregnancy hormones have me crying!). You have such a wonderful attitude and that little girl is going to be so loved and lucky! Praying for you that she arrives safe and sound with an "easy" delivery for you :)" -- KASONSMOMMA82
So I went in on Wednesday for my 30 week appointment. I havent been feeling too bad, just a little extra tired, some cramping like menstrual type cramps that go into my back as well, and some swelling in my hands and feet at the end of the day somedays. All of which is pretty normal for the most part.
They nurse checked my bloodpressure and as they always do they re-take it because no one can believe that I have high bloodpressure and that I had it prior to pregnancy. However, this time instead of it being in the 140's over 80's-90's it I guess was significantly higher. So she went out and got the doctor who promptly came in and had me lay down, he measured my belly, listened to her heartbeat and said that I was measuring perfect, my weight was perfect, and her heart beat was perfect. I am so thankful for all of those!
He did say though that it was extremely high and that he wanted me to go over the hospital right after leaving the office that day for bloodwork. He increased my bloodpressure medication, and said they would be seeing me more often. I smiled and told him, "I know probably every other week from now on right?" He told me that actually from now on I will be at the office twice a week every week from now until she is born. I have to go in Monday's and Thursday's for stress and non-stress tests, and to listen to her heartbeat, and some other tests. In addition to the Monday and Thursday schedule he had me set an appointment for Wednesday May 2nd to go in and have an ultrasound done to check/meaure the fluid around her and make sure the placenta is still ok and that the bloodpressure is not causing it to fail/not provide what it needs to her. So...ok I set all those up and am just so thankful that she is healthy and that they are watching me so closely.
So Ryan and I went over to the hospital for my bloodwork and the woman tells me that I have to do a 24 hour urine test and that they will give me a collection jug in the lab.
And then she asks me if I am still working? When I say yes, she asks if I'll still be while doing all these tests? Needless to say I was confused until she told me that I am going to be at the hospital twice a week until she is born (in addition to the twice a week at the dr's office) becuase I have to get a complete bloodwork panel each time, also collect a 24 hour urine jug, collect for 24 hours, bring the jug back and get another complete bloodwork panel done, and get another 24 hour urine jug for the next week. I will be doing weekly bloodwork panels and 24 hour urine test weekly for the next 10 weeks or until she is delivered. Yikes. lol I think I finally got it all down pat and have figured out how to time it with work and such!
I did my first 24 hour urine test yesterday (at work) I just brought a cooler and bag with me, I must have looked pretty funny everytime going to the bathroom....good thing I work at a Health Department and they understand :) haha
it was confusing at first until I had the girl tell me what it was I would have to do each time I go to the hospital, it was a lot to process. I apologized for seeming so blank when she explained it the first time but she was very nice and understood that with what I had just scheduled over at the dr's office my mind was a whirlwind of appts. But I think it will work out pretty good...hopefully. Ryan is such a sweetie he keeps telling me he will do this or that and that I should just lay down and relax whenever possible. He is such a great hubby and I am truly thankful for him.
Kailey must be getting to be a "big" girl in there, I feel her move but it is more like a booty or head rolling against and across my tummy. It is an awesome feeling, I just picture her gaining and growing in there and I get excited. I am really excited to see her again on the ultrasound screen May 2nd. I cannot believe that is only like 4 weeks away and by then I will be 35 weeks! It has really flown by. I am perfectly happy with her in my tummy but I have to admit hubby is right, I cant wait to hold her and have her here either.
Today we are going to take it easy when I get off work and we are headed to get some stuff for a hospital bag just so I can have it all set just in case, we never know if I will have to go on bedrest or if I may just start to not feel so good, or whatever the case so that will be one more thing we get done. Also we have an appt with a local daycare that is out of a woman's home, she is licensed by DCFS and watches other children as well, I am hoping she is good and am just quite nervous abou this with all the child abuse and daycare worker issues I keep seeing and hearing out in the news and from others. We shall see. I know my sister and sister in law are both making me feel bad about this, they keep saying "i could never put my kid in daycare, and keep reminding me of the horror stories." I am already terrified of this and we are considering to have me stay home and may end up doing so but I just dont like that my sister (with no kids) and my sister in law (who's husband just got a 25,000 bonus from CAT) are making me feeling bad. Ryan makes good money but I am just conerned still, it is a big decision. Ryan says I should and then the next minute he is saying we'll sit down and do a budget to see for sure. So that is probably something we will do this weekend hopefully. I sobbed last night when we were watching the news and the headline was that the husband of a daycare owner slammed a 2 month old's head onto something ( i kinda blanked and caught some of the story) and the little one died. I just put my head in my hands and actually sobbed. poor Ryan looked at me and didnt know what to say. I just told him that I am really worried about it and feel like a terrible mother already pushing her child off onto someone that you truly never know may be dangerous. *sigh*
On another note at least I am happy that we have our pediatrician picked out and Ryan and I both really like her compared to the others we met with. She seems really great!
Other than that Ryan is going to finish sanding some spots of drywall and get the kitchen, living room, and dining room painted ....well started this weekend. I am soooo excited to get that started :) I hope we can get that done before she is here, her nursery is pretty much done but I am also excited to have the rest of our house done too! That will be awesome! He got our upstairs bathroom done last weekend which is really nice too! We put up tile together months ago and he had been waiting for his friend to help him with the grouting becuase he is pretty good with it compared to Ryan and I with grouting. I'm looking forward to this weekend and am pretty tired so I see some naps in my future :)
I hope everyone is feeling well....it is exciting to get to see how you all are doing and how everyone's tickers keep moving along and how BFP's are popping up everywhere it seems. I hope for those of your TTC that you too get your BFP's I am keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers. I'll be excited to read and hear about your journeys through TTC and pregnancy as well. It goes soooo fast, i cannot beleive it, it really seems like it was just yesterday that I was peeing on those darn test strips hoping, desperately praying for that darn 2nd pink line to show it, it was always just that one lone line month after month until that really unexpected month when I was like "hey...wait.....what....really??...no way....ahh finally!!!! Finally BFP and that was almost 8 months ago. It seems crazy to think that it was that long ago, it has flown by.
Enjoy everyone! 3.30.2012
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"How are you doing with all of the dr appointments? I was dx w/gestational diabetes...and was told if my numbers weren't really good every time I called them in (2xwk) that they would have be going in weekly as well for the non-stress tests. Just that alone had me panicking! I can't imagine. I hope you have adjusted to it all and that it goes well.
I also hope you get your home projects done! We have a few I'd really like to see done as well before baby comes. I just have this thought it won'..." -- JENNIFERKC
"Wow, that is heavy. How great that you were able to work everything out with your job. For a while we thought I might have gestational diabetes and I went and told my principal and he was really good to me about it and very understanding of the extra time the tests were going to take. Thankfully, I didn't end up having it, but I appreciated knowing that my job would understand if I had to be gone a lot.
As far as the daycare goes...you have to do what works for you and your family. Every fam..." -- HUGHES.SANDRA
"oh and I'm so sorry that you are having issues but at least they are monitoring you very closely! I pray for a healthy 10 weeks and then that little princess can make her way out :)" -- KASONSMOMMA82
"I so feel for you hun! THe going back to work is killer and I had a year of maternity leave. I will not be going back after #2 until we are finished having kids and they are in school!!!
Today was such a blessing. Since today was my day to work only until noon, I got off work, ran and picked up my co-workers birthday cake and came back to surprise her at work today since we found out she wont be at work tomorrow on her birthday, ate some cate and chatted with my co-workers. Then headed home, let my pups sit outside with me in the sun for a little while but let them back inside before they got too hot and I was able to relax outside in the sun here in Illinois it was in the 80's. I got about an hour of sun and feel soooo much better. I'm really not a winter person. I sat around and relaxed and will start making dinner soon.
I'm finding though that there is a lot of judgment out there...so for anyone who is pregnant or trying to become pregnant. I just hope that you all are not too discouraged by some of the things people say. Thankfully I have been able to laugh most everything off or take what I can out of what they say that might be useful. I always get the people that tell me how horrible their pregnancies were and instead of saying that I am lucky to have a relatively enjoyable pregnancy they tell me that I will feel miserable soon, just to wait, etc. I get that they may think they are trying to help but my feet swell already, I get migraines in which I am not allowed to take my prescribed migraine medication becuase it is a class C restristed during pregnancy, my back does hurt, I am super tired and take naps after work, and my fibromyalgia has been flaring up quite a bit, and the newest thing has been when laying down in bed at night I get some serious heartburn and even have some lovely acid reflux I guess you would call it BUT overall I dont really like to talk about all those things....I expected them and knew they came with the territory. I truly dont mind people describing what they went through and how it was in deed tough and a struggle at times becuase it is BUT again I do mind when they act as though I should feel bad for not jumping right in and complaining. I have found a lot of people are willing to share the bad to try and prepare you but arent so willing to keep it equal and describe some of the good that can come from pregnancy.
I just hope that everyone knows that each pregnancy is different, every woman, every baby is different, some may be utterly miserable 24/7 while others not so much or only at certain times. I just hope everyone is able to enjoy different things out of their pregnancies and be happy for others to are able to do so while also being sympathetic to those that have very hard pregnancies as well. We should all be a bit more understanding to one another I think. We should be there for eachother when we want to rant and rave and just dont feel well but we should also encourage one another as well. Though through it all I have gotten some great advice and overall enjoy hearing about everyone's experiences. Now that I am showing it sure does insight people to start sharing their stories...which can be pretty cool to hear :)
Now if I could just get some of the people in my family and some of the people in Ryan's family to understand the concept of being understanding. I get that my mother in law is a terrible pain, she really is...she is selfish and at times can be downright mean and hurtful not only to Ryan, his sister, her husband, and I and the rest of her family (parents, siblings, etc) but I have tried to tell my mom and sister even though they want to help being mean to her will not help the situation, there was talk that if she caused trouble at the baby shower, she would be told to leave or they would inform her they would call the local sheriff dept and have her removed. Just today my sister informed me that she wanted to know if it was rude to tell Krista (Ryan's sister) to tell my MIL not to come and help set up since she hasnt bothered to call Ryan or I in the past year even after finding out we were pregnant. I get it but I told her yes, not only would it be rude, it would also cause problems for Krista who desperately wants a relationship with her mom and would be put in the middle, but it would also cause a problem for Ryan and I becuase we would be the one's answering to my MIL and he has been attempting to be decent to her as well. My MIL and I have talked and i told her that there are always going to be things that she and I or that she and Ryan or she and her other family members disagree on but that doesnt mean we should love and respect one another and we should not send nasty notes in the mail to eachother stating things that people did over 4 years ago. (she sent Ryan and his sister both a letter in the mail one day about how they were not good kids to her, she said that Ryan didnt talk to her enough when we were over at her house, and just some other stuff that was random) I just told her that really hurt Ryan and Krista and that since they have talked it out, I think it would be best for her to in the future just go directly to them and talk it out. My husband and I really will never leave Kailey alone with my MIL due to the fact that she is in some things that we are not into. She has strangers over at her house quite often from out of state and has meetings with them and has even started hanging out with a christian "healer" who thinks that "his power" comes from himself and not from God and just some sketchy people and she has been acting more and more like this person lately as well so we want her to be a part of Kailey's life which is why we are trying and also trying to keep my family from getting involved even though they want to protect us, but we will have her in kailey's life but will carefully monitor things and influences and potential sorry to say child molesters that they may or may not have over at her house. I just wish everyone would take a step back and try to have some understanding towards one another. Life is too short for all this stuff that has been going on between our families lately. Especially when planning this baby shower. Like Ryan said unfortunately it seems like it is for our families and not us but none the less I am grateful becuase they are just really all trying to make it special and are really overthinking it, we told them to just keep it simple but they are just sooo understandably excited which I am lucky for but at times it can be like "yikes" :)
So needless to say I really enjoy the times with Ryan, my pups, and a quiet afternoon out in my backyard under the sun. :) lol
3.21.2012
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"Hey lady! It is so hard to believe this pregnancy is going so fast, when at times if felt like it was going so slow. I hear you on people telling you about their bad stories. I know people just want to relate...but we have waited 12 YEARS for our baby, and while I don't love the heartburn and achy hips and other weirdness that comes along with it...I'll take it ALL and more for this miracle! I'm SO excited! I think what is hardest to hear is people talk about how far along they were when they lo..." -- JENNIFERKC
"I'm sorry that this has been a bit stressful in terms of inlaws! I know mine can be a pain sometimes, but nothing like this! I think that taking the higher road and doing exactly what you are doing is the best way to deal with it! Hang in there:) I know it is hard to be in the middle and surrounded by drama!" -- ANGIESEDMAK
"Family can be so complicated. You have a wonderful perspective on it and I think being positive and also cautious is a great thing! So sorry you are stuck in the middle!
I also find it crazy how women are so negative about kids and being pregnant but think about how many negative people there are in life and are negative about all aspects. I read an interesting book that talked about the fact that women don't "really" discuss all of the craziness of child birth and breastfeeding and how we a..." -- KASONSMOMMA82
Wow! I am so excited, in the June 2012 mommy team the 100 day count down was started. I cannot believe that I could actually add my name to the list of people that only had 80 days or less until their little one arrives.
I truly never thought I would ever get to this point. I look back on everything Ryan and I went through, the 2 little ones we lost and still miss everyday, the years of trying to have a baby after miscarriages, all the meds and temp charts, and praying desperately for a baby. I have had a lot of those moments lately of just looking back and being in utter disbelief that I have finally been lucky enough to soon become a mom of a healthy baby that I can actually hold in my arms and enjoy many family moments together with Ryan and our dogs. I look forward to so much and am so hopeful.
I think it is hitting Ryan moreso lately too becuase when we were just sitting in our nursery he got tears in his eyes and said that he just cannot wait until she is here, he has been saying that more and more lately, he keeps saying he cant wait to take her for walks, take her to visit with family, and all the other things he keeps thinking about and looking forward to. I truly am so thankful to God that I have Ryan in my life. There has been so much that I have prayed for in my life and so many things I look back on and in hind sight can see/hear God saying "just wait Kelly.....just wait until you see what I have in store for you and your future, it is so much better than what you could imagine or hope for." I'm not saying that things wont be terribly hard at times but I want to always be thankful even for the hard times we experience.
So like I was saying, it is amazing that I have about 11 short weeks until she is here with us. I look at my due date ticker and it is only 79 days until she is here, I cannot wait but I am really enjoying being pregnant.
So we now have the dresser, crib, and glider set up in the nursery. We just have to move the computer to another room, rearrange the furniture the way we want it and hang her letters for her name on the wall.
We have our baby shower on April 14th which is only 3-4 weeks away.
We have appointments to meet with 2 pediatricians in the area this coming Friday and see if we want to go with either of them.
We have an appointment to meet with a potential home daycare center next Friday the 30th, that is the one I am most nervous about, even though we only need daycare for 80 days from August 2011-August 2012 it still kills me that she will be with a stranger and other older children that I dont know without me for a whole day. I am glad that my husband works rotating shift which has really kept the number of days that she will need to be in daycare down drastically. I am just hoping that this woman is really reliable, that is the only part that is making me very nervous...everything else I can handle but being unsure about the safety of my baby girl is just not something i am handling well, maybe I will feel better once I meet and talk with this woman. I just hear so many stories about parents being so distraught becuase something happened to their kids and they really thought that the babysitter or daycare was reliable and everything checked out.
On a happier note I set an appointment for April 25th to get our maternity pictures taken, i will be about 34 weeks along and am really looking forward to this!
I will also be ordering Ryan's first father's day gift before I go on maternity leave so he can have it on father's day which will probably be right around the time Kailey is born or a week after. Since he has wanted a custom chicago white sox jersery with his name and the number 15 on it I am going to order that and then get an exact copy of his but in a 12 month old size (smallest I could find). I am just back and forth as to whether I should get the number 15 on her's too or if I should get the number 01 on it for our first born or what number I should get on it......any opions???
We have gotten a lot done and planned to get done within the near future. I know it is kind of soon but I have also started a list of what I should pack for the hospital so that I can hold off until I get some stuff from our babyshower to include in the hospital bag like bottles, pacifiers, onsies, her coming home outfit, etc.
I look forward to my 10 weeks off work this summer. I cannot wait!!!
3.20.2012
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"I have had those overwhelming moments. I just started to be able to feel the baby kick (I mean from outside). He was really giving it to me and I could see my tummy moving at the dentist (mint maybe?). On the way home I was thinking about all we had been through, too, and started to cry. Oh, happy tears you know!
I smiled on the Jersey. My husband wants one too...but Chicago Cubs! Could you get your hubby the jersey he wants and maybe a cut sox onsie or outfit for the baby to wear? I promise..." -- JENNIFERKC
"So, I know I'm emotional and all, but I have tears running down my face reading your blog! What a beautiful testimony to faith and patience! You are such a remarkable woman and I really do admire the way that you have faced all of the hardships that you went through to get to this point and all of your great insight! I know it is hard to stay positive during those difficult "TTC" years! You're going to be such a great mom to Kailey! She will feel so special to know that you have prayed for ..." -- ANGIESEDMAK
"AWWWW you have me crying - you have such a beautiful perspective and its so true......we think at the time that we want something and are so upset/mad/sad when it doesn't happen - but when it finally works out it is just simply and truly wonderful and we can't imagine life any other way! Good for you both for enjoying it so much and realizing how lucky you are!
I love the father's day gift idea! I don't think you have to put a number on it but if you did maybe '12 for being born in 2012? or ..." -- KASONSMOMMA82
DH is definetly nesting. :)
We have finished our registry, bought our travel system (stroller & car seat), sent our guest list to my sister, mom, and Ryan's sister for the baby shower, we have found our crib that we are going to buy, and have now ordered the dresser that will hopefully match our crib pretty good. The dresser we were going to buy that matched the crib was $599 and Ryan found one we both liked for $250 with free shipping and it should be here within the next 5 days....I am so excited!
Hubby is off today and he is finishing painting the nursery.
Yesterday was a nice day, I went to the hospital for some testing (EKG & ECO) that the doctor just wanted to have done becuase of my high bloodpressure and since I've been having some chest pain and while we were at the hospital we decided to see if we could tour the labor and delivery area and we had a nice nurse take us around and show us everything and explain where I would go once I think I am in labor, and where the nursery is, etc. It was nice to see and made it quite real even though I still have another 3 1/2 months.
Things have been progressing very good, we have gotten a lot accomplished! The most exciting thing that we have accomplished is settling on her full name. I made it official by writing it in her baby book. I really liked the spelling Kailey so dh agreed to that and he really liked the middle name Addison so I agreed to that becuase I like it to, it was my second pick.
Kailey Addison Hitt
It has been such a blessing to feel her kick and move more, she is getting stronger becuase Ryan can now feel her every once in awhile which makes him even more excited about everything. He is sooo looking forward to having her here!
Happy Valentines Day everyone!
2.14.2012
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"Kelly-
Thanks for your words of encouragement on my blog post...really didn't think anyone read it...haha! Thank you for the complements on my baby girl...she is a true joy. SO happy your pregnancy is going well, I to suffered a miscarriage and it was some of the worse pain I have ever felt. It is hard to enjoy your pregnancy after a loss, but try to! Congrats on having a girl! They are the best!" -- BECCAB62
"I am absolutely in love with that dresser - how cute! Perfect for your little girl! I also adore the name you have chosen for her! I literally had tears spilling out of my eyes while reading your blog....I couldn't be happier for you! You have been through so much and have waited so long and I'm so happy that your time has finally come! How amazing! What a miracle:)" -- ANGIESEDMAK
It's a GIRL!!!! We are soo excited! We would have been excited either way but it is so awesome now we know what we are having! Ryan says he is going to have to lock her up till she's 18 lol!
The ultrasound tech was amazing, she took like an hour with us and just really got so many different angles and details on facial features and legs, arms, etc. It was sooo amazing! I have never experienced anything like that, just beyond words.
She says that I am measuring still at 22 weeks today and that the due date is still two days ahead of the original date...so I am still due June 6th, 2012.
She weighs about 1 lb and 2 ounces. The woman kept commenting on how active she was and how she kept moving but still photographed very well. We got some amazing pictures, even one of her perfect little feet! It was so funny to see she at first was just kicking her feet then a little while later she brough both her legs and feet up to her head and was holding onto them with her hand. So cute to see!
The heart, spine, kidneys, stomach, hands and feet, brain, and size of her are all measuring perfect and working very well! Her heart beat was 154 today!
I am just so thankful to hear that everything is perfect with her, that is the most important thing and what has made me the happiest today!!!!
So we are the proud parents of a little girl......who now needs a name :) !!!
I will try to take pictures of the ultrasound pics with my camera and up load them but my scanner is not working so I dont know how well the pics will turn out. :)
2.1.2012
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"I can't believe I was sooo busy this past week or so that I am just now reading this!!! I'm beyond excited for you! I had a feeling that it would be a girl! YAY! I'm so happy to hear that the ultrasound went well and that she is healthy - those are the most amazing appointments! Congratulations:)" -- ANGIESEDMAK
"Well so far I have tons that I like and out of those Ryan only has said he likes Kaley or Kaylee.....but that wasn't one of my favs..just one I liked. So we are gonna go through the baby names book we have. Hopefully we can agree on some lol!" -- KELLY42105
"YAY!!! So very exciting. Glad to hear all went well and you got to see your little GIRL :) Do you have any ideas of names?" -- KASONSMOMMA82
I am trying to organize everything and get everything set for when the baby's here.
There have been some changes that have come about in my life some good and some that have knocked me down a bit. All of them God is using to shape me and mold me but for a while there it really had me down and out. I have prayed and cried and prayerd and am feeling a bit better and feel like I atleast have options.
Ryan's job is going great, he is doing very well and they are so happy with him which is a blessing in itself, he has already been there for over a year now which is great! We thank God for that. And our plan (which is probably funny to God...."our plan") but anyway our plan was that I would continue to go to school and get done and in the mean time stay home with our little one while he worked. I only had about another year, so we thought this would be great!
However, I was recently notified that I am no longer eligble for financial aid at my college becuase I have taken too many credits. The reason I have too many credits is becuase I had to take a bunch of pre-requirements for other courses that I needed due to a placement test that is required. I still needed 2 more classes prior to getting into the program I was wanting to get into, after that I would only have about 2 semesters after that until I recieved my degree. I feel like I am so close yet so far.
Currently at this job I make just enough to pay for daycare and for my student loans that I will have to pay on now that I am not in school anymore. So no extra money for classes at this time, which I can wait if necessary and maybe go back to school later so I am ok with that. But currently I only work part time and have asked to be brought up to 37.5 hours, to make it worth working here and paying for daycare. I have enough work with training the volunteers and staff in emergency preparedness. I recruit, train, and manage a volunteer group of about 50+ people and they now want me to train the staff as well. I develop trainings, track and log all certificates, develop exercises, do phone drills, develop recruiting and marketing materials, I help with grant deliverables, I help the Emergency Preparedness Coordinator prepare for the annual review and complete my portions of the quarterly reports that need to be done, as well as participating in local fairs to recruit, I brought the program from 5 volunteers to 50+ volunteers so I really feel like this is something that they should do. So the administrator is asking the personnel committee but they dont want to offer me health insurance so I have proposed that I draft something stating my request to waive health insurance benefits (since I get them through Ryan anyway) and just request for the hours of 37.5. I would then make what I am making in 2 weeks only in 1 week, which would be so truly amazing, then I could feel a bit more secure and would be able to contribute and have money to put away.
We shall see though, one day my office manager is nice and the next she acts like it is a big put out to ask her to take this request to the board and personnel committee. Which the Administrator who is over her seems more willing to do this. it frustrates me becuase my office manager acts as though she couldnt stand loosing me and tells everyone how great I do but then in the next breath tells me how many committees they'd have to take this to...which would only be 2. So I told her today that she could either ask or I would only be here unfortunately temporary and with being here for three years with them would be ashame but I have to do what I have to do. And prior to me they had 4 people in 2 years come and go out of this position, so I would think they would be willing but if not, then there is no room for advancement with this company. i am trying not to be bitter about this but today I think it is hard becuase of the shrug and look she gave me about how she would have to write a proposal to get my position full time. So I just feel like after three years that is what I get from them...a shrug and a look about how they'd have to make effort at this. So I am really glad it is the weekend, I need the days away from this place.
I know it sounds like I am complaining about everything and to some extent I am complaining but I just am using this as a means to listen to God and try to understand what I am supposed to do. I dont mind not making a lot of money but its dishearting to have what seems like everything alter. But at least I have options. Plue God is giving me such an amazing gift of this little baby that I am just focusing on that and the main reason I am worrying about all of this is that I just want to be able to provide for my little one in the best way possible and contribute with Ryan.
On a much much much happier note, I am feeling the baby kick more which is such an amazing feeling and a blessing in itself that it makes everything else sort of pause and melt away. Plus....we only have about 5 more days until next Wednesday when we get to find out if we are having a boy or girl. Ryan and I are so excited and we are just enjoying this whole process. I know things will work out for the best and Ryan keeps telling me not worry about it but I am and cannot help it, but we will make it and I am sure I will look back on this and laugh and shake my head about how God had this in His hands the whole time and that I should've known things would work out.
I hope everyone else is doing good and enjoying their life at whatever point they are in it. Be thankful for the small blessings God gives us....even though at times it is hard to be thankful!
1.27.2012
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"Aw, thank you so much Angie! I really am thankful for your support. I am definetly feeling much better about the situation and will do the best I can like Ryan keeps telling me. We are very blessed to have him/her and we will be going next weekend to register and therefore have some fun, it is something else to look forward to along with looking forward to finding out if we are having a boy or girl. Thank you for reading my rant, and really understanding that even though I am worried and stresse..." -- KELLY42105
"I hate it when work is stressful! Praying that this will work out well and that you will either find an even better job or that they will let you work full time! You deserve it!
On a different note - my eyes are so full with tears after reading about your love for this little miracle baby! What a beautiful blessing and it is wonderful that this baby has a mom that loves him/her the way that you do! I'm counting down the days until Wed.! I can't wait to hear! I'm so happy for you and I'm..." -- ANGIESEDMAK
"I'm glad to hear I am not the only one. We can feel so out of control sometimes can't we. And it seems like no matter where we are at in life there is always something at that particular stage where we need to re evaluate and re organize and replan things, but sometimes even though it is scary it can be for the best which we cant yet see, that is what I am trying to focus on. I hope that is the case for you too, I hope that you get a sticky baby soon, I am sorry you had to go through miscarriage..." -- KELLY42105
"I hear you on the planning - I feel like I'm constantly trying to plan and control things - with us having the miscarriage though I feel so out of wack and like nothing is going according to my plan but just trying to have faith its all working out like it should. Hoping you get everything figured out! Can't wait to hear if your having a boy or girl! You should post a bump picture!!" -- KASONSMOMMA82
My appointment went well. Baby's heart rate was around 158, that is always so great to get to hear his/her heart beat. Last time it was around 130"s and the time before that it was around 160's, so who knows it could be boy or girl :) He/She is getting a bit more active now, as I can feel a few flutters and light "thumps" almost like I'm tapping my finger tips lightly on my tummy. I hope to get to feel more soon! It is a reassuring feeling.
They told me that I need more Potassium in my diet and that is to account for the severe leg cramps.
The doctor told me that because of my already high blood pressure and my family history of toxemia that I will be needing to go to the hospital within the next week or so to get blood work done to check my liver and kidney function as well as do a 24 hour urine test.
She said that once I reach 32 weeks, she wants me to come in 2 times a week. She said they normally do once a week starting at 37 weeks but they are just wanting to keep a closer eye on me because she says they consider me a high risk pregnancy not only with the high blood pressure but also due to my history of miscarriages. With that being said she told me that in my case they will probably want to make sure that I go into labor or have the baby on or by my due date, I guess they aren't going to want me to go much longer than that just because of the strain on my body towards the end of pregnancy and in turn the stress on the baby's, depending on how my BP is and everything else.
We did not get an ultrasound yesterday, which I didn't really expect I just was hoping. :)
She did say that in 2 weeks I can come in for an ultrasound to find out the sex of the baby, but my husband has to work on the day they offered (they only do ultrasounds on Wednesdays) so we went the next week out. So in 3 weeks on February 1st we get to have our ultrasound and hopefully find out boy or girl!!!! I honestly can hardly wait! So exciting, I am enjoying every minute of pregnancy!
She also had me set another appointment two weeks after that for another OB Check, they sure are monitoring me closely which is a reassuring feeling!
I am just so thankful everything is going good, baby's heart sounds healthy and everything. She did mention that the medication they gave me for my blood pressure can sometimes make it difficult for the baby to gain weight but I am hoping to compensate for that, I will just continue to eat snacks more often (healthy and otherwise).
It was a very informative appointment with a lot of information and really nice doctors and nurses. I am very blessed to have them taking such good care of me! Hubby is so excited to find out boy/girl too he can barely stand it, he and I both don't care what we have boy or girl, we just want to know :)
For a while this pregnancy wasn't going by fast at all; when I was worried about getting past those first 8-10 weeks but now weeks are flying by. I cannot believe I am already over 19 weeks along. Almost halfway through my pregnancy! Wow! I am just trying to enjoy being pregnant.
1.12.2012
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"I'm so glad that everything went well! What a beautiful thing to feel the baby fluttering away:) I'm also glad to hear that they are keeping a close eye on you from here on out! It is always nice to have the doctors cautious and thorough! I can't wait until Feb. 1st to find out what you are having!!!!!! My gut says GIRL!" -- ANGIESEDMAK
"glad to hear all is going so well and they are monitoring you so closely! good luck finding out - its such a joyful ultrasound!" -- KASONSMOMMA82
I am keeping my fingers crossed for tomorrow. I am scheduled for an appointment to measure my stomach, estimate the size of the baby, do some genetic blood work testing to see if he/she has any genetic disorders (which I was back and forth on doing because I will love him/her either way but maybe it will give hubby and I more time to better prepare to help him/her if there is a problem) and we aren't scheduled for an ultrasound but the receptionist said that the doctor that I am seeing sometimes just likes to do them because my appointment is on an ultrasound day. I hope so!
They said they normally don't sex the baby until 20-24 weeks at their office but since I will be only a week or so away from that I am hoping they at least attempt it. :)
I am doing good but I just want to check with them about my weight gain. I was 115 pre-pregnancy and am only up to about 124 or 125, I hope that is normal and on track, I hope I am gaining enough.
They will also be taking a look at my blood pressure which has yet to come down even with the medication they prescribed, I am wanting to make sure that my extreme leg cramps are normal and not something up with my potassium or circulation like they said to watch out for.
Otherwise I am feeling very fortunate and blessed. I pray for a good appointment tomorrow and for a healthy baby!
1.10.2012
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"Hoping your appointment goes great!" -- KASONSMOMMA82
I am so thankful that God has continued to bless me with this little one. It at times doesn't seem real. I can honestly say the past 5 years have really humbled me and truly taught me what is important in life. I learned a lot about myself and my husband through this entire journey. I just pray for things to continue along smoothly. Everyday that I have this healthy little one is another one that I thank God for.
Just a little update:
Well...obviously I am a little over 15 weeks along. I have appointments every 2-4 weeks. Some are just for a blood pressure check up and most of them I get to hear the heartbeat of the baby as part of the checkup. I am so thankful that I get to hear the heartbeat of this little one more often and I have already had 3 early ultrasounds which has been really nice to get to enjoy this little one so much already. My husband has been to every appointment and is just so excited, he keeps listing all the things he looks forward to doing with this baby. It seems like everytime we go out to eat he says to me that he wishes our little one was here becuase he can't wait to take him or her out with us. :)
I have been on blood pressure medication for the past 3 weeks to try and lower my bloodpressure. Unfortunately that has not lowered it yet, I went in this past Monday, December 12th for a bloodpressure check and got to hear the baby's heart beat. 2 weeks prior the baby's heart beat was 160 and this past Monday is was only 133. I was terrified becuase just like with my two previous pregnancies she could not find the heartbeat but thankfully this time she found it with the other doppler. I asked her if it was normal that the baby's heartbeat went down, that made me nervous as well but she said that sometimes they are just relaxing and being lazy :). Becuase my bloodpressure has not dropped at all on the meds they want me to come back in 4 weeks.
I set my next appointment for January 11th at 2:30pm. I will be 19 weeks along then. They are going to measure my belly and the baby and check my bloodpressure again. They want me to keep track of it until the next appointment. They are a bit concerned becuause my grandmother had toxemia really bad and had difficulty with breathing and bloodpressure like I am. Hopefully it is just my body adjusting but I am so glad that my doctors are keeping a close eye on everything.
So at the January 11th appointment, I will schedule my next ultrasound for about a week an a half later to find out the sex of the baby. So probably somewhere around January 27th we will get to find out boy or girl and we'll get to know if they still think the estimated due date of June 6th is still on track.
I hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas if I don't talk to you before then! I hope it is a fun time with family and friends and lots of goodies! Enjoy the food, I know I will especially this year!!!!! 12.16.2011
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"Hope they are able to get the blood pressure under control. Our babies heartbeat is a bit slower at each appointment. My OB said that it will continue to go down until it levels out somewhere typically in the 130's. I think baby sounds right on track :-) I hope things continue to go well for you!" -- JENNIFERKC
"I'm so happy to hear that everything is going well and that the baby is growing and healthy! I hope that they get your BP under control soon though!!!! I totally have "girl" vibes for you with this pregnancy and I can't wait to find out!!!! I'm so excited for you:)" -- ANGIESEDMAK
I feel like every other post is good and then bad. Like a roller coaster.
Well, I am happy to say that my levels that were low last tuesday went up that thursday.
My progesterone should be between 0-50 and mine is at about 22.1 which they said they are quite happy with. I just had it tested again yesterday (Tuesday) so we will find out tomorrow how my levels are continuing on now that I am on the progesterone.
My HCG levels were supposed to be anywhere from 1,800-56,000 and my count was 23,600 which was right in the middle. YAY!
They did move up my initial appt to tomorrow just to check a head and make sure everything is ok . This is the part that makes me very vey nervous, my last two pregnancies, I went in and they have looked and looked for a heart beat and didnt find one so I am just praying that doesnt happen this time.
Praise God for allowing us to catch my levels dropping this time and bringing my levels back up, I pray that this little one is the one!!!!
I am very excited and cannot wait until I make it to a point in pregnancy that I have yet to make it to with my last two pregnancies. So around 10-14 weeks I will feel soooo much better if everything checks out then.
I will try to post tomorrow and put up a picture of the ultrasound.
Ryan is so excited he can barely stand it and has been doing everything around the house, I feel bad that all I do is lay around for the most part. He is such a great and amazing husband. Thank God for him. He is excited for tomorrow becuase he has not heard the heart beat on the last two like I did atleast once on each so I am anxious for tomorrow to get here :)
10.19.2011
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"The whole TTC is a roller coaster! Wishing you well and waiting for an update!
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"Praying that you and your LO are doing well!!!!" -- ANGIESEDMAK
Well, I got the call for the results of my second Progesterone blood level test today. It is a good thing that I really pushed and pushed for them to test my levels weekly when my doctor didnt think that I really needed to have them tested that often because the nurse informed me that my progesterone levels have dropped since that last time and if anything they are supposed to increase. So they are starting me on 200mg of progesterone once in the morning and another 200mg at night. I started that immediately.
I called back and got the nurse that is so caring and I just adore her, I told her my concern that if he would have missed this I would have inevitabily miscarried eventually and who knows if that may still happen or for how many days my levels have been low. I told her that I really apologize but I can help but wonder what else he may just be assuming is fine and not checking, so instead of waiting until the 24th when my initial appt is, I wanted to know if I could have my complete blood level test and all my hormone levels checked. She was completely understanding and said that is what they were there for and that no one should make me feel like I have to pull teeth to get good health care. She told me I could come in whenever I wanted, she would be there. I went in at 1:30 and had her draw the blood, she assured me that she would call me tomorrow so I didnt have to worry over the weekend with the results. Bless her, becuase I would have worried just like I am right now.
I am still at work and terrified, I still have to tell Ryan what they are testing and what I have found out so far. Like I told him prior to all of this I told him I will not be able to handle this if it happens again. Since 1:30 I have burst into tears constantly, I am trying to keep the faith and hope that God understands my faltering right now. I pray that this little miracle baby gets to be a healthy, full term miracle baby.
I know it is becuase I am so worried, but I just feel like headed and a bit in a daze, I just want to get that call tomorrow that says everything is ok with all my other levels. I hate to admit it and feel horrible about admitting it but I cant help but loose faith and hope. This is what happened the last two times, though we didnt notice it until about 8 weeks and I am only 6, so if there hasnt been too much damage already done to that poor little one fighting for his/her life I may have caught it early enough. So like I said I just pray that taking the progesterone does the trick becuase I feel like there is nothing else I can do, I have been eating healthy and resting a lot. I havent lifted anything heavy, I havent been stressed out until now, and I have drank so much water that I feel like I am constantly in running to the restroom, that is why I feel so hopeless and like I just cant handle this if it happens again becuase there is nothing left for me to do to try and sustain the pregnancy.
I do plan on informing my doctor that i dont appreciate him making it like pulling teeth for me to get my progesterone levels tested especially since obviously I knew what I was talking about and it was a good thing I pushed for it. I am not happy with him one bit right now.
I am just asking for prayers, lots and lots of them for this little one to be healthy and for us to have caught this in time.
Well, I am off to go home and lay down becuase I feel so out of it that I just need to sleep and not be up worrying any more that I already have becuase that in itself is not good for the baby.
Thank you all for your support and I hope to have much better news tomorrow.
Take care
10.13.2011
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"Thank you both! All I have done is sleep it feels like. Things are looking better, my levels went back up and I cannot wait until I am about 12-14 weeks, I will feel sooo much better....more relaxed. Thank you for thinking of me and giving me some much needed support." -- KELLY42105
"Praying for you, hope baby is doing just fine, Thinking of you x" -- CHARLIEAA
"I am PRAYING for you guys! I am sure it will all work out. Sleep is probably the best thing you can do for yourself as its impossible to stress and your body can work its magic! Thinking of you and praying for a sticky baby for you guys!" -- KASONSMOMMA82
Well, come tomorrow (Monday) I will need to call my new doctors office and tell him he can cancel my laproscopy and hysteroscopy becuase I just got a BFP this morning. I am so excited yet so nervous becuase I havent taken my prenatals since I was off the meds this month and wasnt going to try this month becuase I was going to get this procedure done. I am just hoping everything will be ok with this little baby. I hope this dr will check me out more often and have me in for more appts so we can monitor my progesterone levels.
God is so amazing! He knew this doctor would be best for me in ways that I dont even know yet, but He wanted me to get with this doctor before giving me my BFP, I had such an amazing feeling when I left there and it was really comforting to hear the christian radio station that I was just listening to in my car before coming into the office and in the office that same radio station was playing. Praise God. He is so great!
Just keep us in your prayers, as I know I will be a bit worried and anxious to make sure that this little one is healthy and a sticky little baby till the end of 40 weeks. Thank you to all of you who have continued to support me, I am so thankful that we are there for eachother during our hardest times to our most exciting times!
I did a due date calculator based on the first day of my last period and according to that I am about 4 weeks and 2 days along and will be due on or around June 8th, 2012. Such an awesome thing...becuase Ryan's birthday is June 15th and mine is June 12th. 10.2.2011
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"Thank you everyone! I am very excited and have joined the June 2012 group. :)" -- KELLY42105
"Congrats - join the Mommy team for June 2012 due dates so we can keep tabs on you. I'm due June 7th!" -- BABY06066
"Congrats - join the Mommy team for June 2012 due dates so we can keep tabs on you. I'm due June 7th!" -- BABY06066
"Congrats - join the Mommy team for June 2012 due dates so we can keep tabs on you. I'm due June 7th!" -- BABY06066
Well, I prayed and prayed that I was making the right decision my going to another doctor and possibly switching over to that doctor. I am so glad that God put this in my path and in my heart to do, it was definetly the right decision.
After all the information that I gave this doctor and my temp charts that I have done for what seems to be forever to him he looked over everything talked to me, put me truly at ease. He at one point early in the visit, stopped, closed my chart and said "First off, how are you? I cannot imagine holding up through all of this, month after month since 2008." He went on and was very caring about how I felt and making sure that I made the decisions of what to do from the options and information that he gave me. Everything he told me, he would stop and ask if he got me upset or worried or anything so far......he was great!
He also informed me that since 2008 I have been ovulating contrary to what my last doctor said.He said that since I got pregnant the first time with no meds and just as a woopsy kind of thing, and I got pregant a second time after one cycle of meds but since my last D&C in 2008 I have not been able to get pregnant he said that 9 times out of 10 there is scar tissue from the D&C procedure inside of me blocking the sperm's passage to get to the egg. Since my doctor has not checked my tubes and wanted me to wait another 3-4 cycles of $200 medication a month this doctor said that it was up to be just he said his opinion would be to have what is called a Laproscopy and a hysteroscopy to push air and dye through my tubes to see if there is a blockage and push the blockage out during that procedure. He says that he feels confident that after this procedure, I will be able to recover, within the next cycle I can start trying again, with no meds, and he thinks that within 5-6 months I will get pregnant if not sooner.
He also was shocked that I have been on clomid, progesterone, and especially estorgen for that long, since 2008. I told him there were a few months that we did not have insurance so I had about 6 months times that I was not taking it. He told me that it didnt matter and that it is not a good idea to even be on it for a year or more especially at the dosages I was at. That was a bit scary to me, I have to say. But I am thankful that God put me in the hands of this doctor who is not ashamed to say to think about any and all decision prayerfully and with Ryan as well. He is very caring and is up front and honest and tells me that it is fine and no judgement whatever I choose. The staff are all really nice, they are chatty and strike up conversations and really put you at ease.
All I can say is praise God for always leading me in the right directions and I am so thankful for this.
So monday I go in for blood work and to talk to the anestheiologist and ask any questions I have. On October 5th I go in for a pre-surg visit at Dr. Kaz's office, then October 6th I have the procedure done. I am anxious to get this done!
I hope he is right and maybe I will be expecting soon! Praise God!
9.22.2011
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"I'm so so so glad to hear that you love your new doctor - that is so important and that he is doing such a thorough job! I have had both of those procedures done (twice) and they are not bad at all! I'm so excited for you! I really hope this new chapter brings great news!" -- ANGIESEDMAK
Well, today is cycle day 5. I called in for med refills last week on Friday, which was CD 1, tried to explain that I needed the meds by Sunday, so I wanted to see if they could be sure to call in the refills. I was told that they had a new process for med refills so I would have to now contact my pharmacy and have them send an electronic request over rather than calling now. So the pharmacy said they would send it right over.
Long story short I checked later with the pharmacy and they said they were still waiting on the doctor's office to get back to them.
Well, needless to say they didnt get the med refills done.
I needed to take clomid on days 3-7, so I just called the office and told them to cancel the request for meds this month becuase I am past the starting date and the lady kind of argued with me and told me I could get them anyway and that I could pay for them now for next month. I politely told her that I would not be doing that becuase with my insurance they are about $250 a month, so I would rather wait till closer to next cycle. I think she was a little frustrated.....but so am I :)
I completely understand that things happen, people get busy so I was trying to be nice, but I am just glad that I made the decision and the appointment with another doctor that I have seen once at the hospital before just to get a second opinion and possibly switch over to him. I am looking forward to my appointment with him on the 16th of this month. I am hoping for a more "aggressive" or "determined" means of treatment. I dont know if aggressive is the right word but I just want someone to try anything he/she can to get me to the hopeful end result of a BFP!
I am hope this is a good decision.
9.6.2011
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"I know that this is an old entry but wanted to comment anyways. I just went through a similar thing with the meds mixup. At first I was frustrated but then got the meds so that I could relax when the next cycle started." -- MOMMYIS40
"I'm so sorry that there was such a mix up with your meds! That is so frustrating! I hope that your new doctor has wonderful new things for you and can get you your much deserved BFP! Hang in there!" -- ANGIESEDMAK
Well, I took a pregnancy test on Saturday and it was a BFN :( I can honestly say I was just angry, not at anyone in particular just upset and for the first time just angry at that negative because this cycle has been so much work. Shooting the crinone gel up me and having it come out at all times of the day, estrogen really messed with my moods, etc.
The reason why I tested (other than sheer hopefulness) was so if I was pregnant I could know right away, get my progesterone levels tested like he said to, get more progesterone from my doctor if needed prior to running out today.
Well it was negative so I called to make an appt and the woman said today was open because of cancellations, so I went there at 2pm. I wanted to see since I didn't start the next cycle yet, if I could just go and get the fertility specialist appointment over with and started because then I figured this cycle wouldn't be out for me.
He took one look at my temp chart and for the first month since 2008 told me it looked absolutely perfect, he was smiling from ear to ear, told me it looked like the diagram/example he gave me and said it couldn't have been better. Then he asks if I took a pregnancy test, even though it was negative he said looking at this I don't see why you wouldn't be pregnant even with that negative test. He said to try testing again within the next day or so. He touches my belly and says the next time he sees me, I am in a pregnant state. He's so nice and positive like Ryan, I could help but smile even though I wanted to collapse and cry in a little ball on the floor.
Then he adds if I am for some reason not pregnant that I will try this same treatment that I have tried for the last 3 years for the next 3 cycles, if that doesn't work I will have a dye testing of my tubes (which I have had before, it is quite painful) and Ryan will be tested as well.
I am glad to know his plan because for a while there he kept telling me next month if I am not pregnant I should go to his associate who is a fertility specialist and now I guess because my temps have been good for the first time ever he wants to try with this which is fine with me but I just hope it works sooner rather than later.
I really hate to complain about the price of the crinone gel because it obviously is working but it is $224 for 15 little tubes with my insurance. I am trying to have patience and am really praying for patience but even more so praying for a positive test even though I am such a pessimist.
I am just asking God to give me strength through trusting in Him.
Thank you ladies for all the continued support and reading my rants and whiny posts, it means more to me than you'll ever know to have a group of women who understands no matter what phase of trying to conceive, pregnancy, or raising children you are all in, everyone supports one another on here.
Take care,
8.29.2011
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"I'm so happy to hear that you have had great news finally! I know that figuring out your cycles/temps are the first step towards getting a BFP! I really hope that your test was taken too soon and that you'll have amazing and miraculous news to share soon! Thinking of you!" -- ANGIESEDMAK
I am really trying to hold off taking a home pregnancy test until tomorrow morning or Sunday morning....but it is hard.
I am back and forth, one minute I feel hopeful that I am pregnant and in the next minute I feel doubtful. My hubby is still very hopeful and thinks that this is the month.
I still feel a bit of tightness in my tummy/pelvic area and I go to the bathroom more often but other than that I dont really see any other signs. I guess my temps have still remained elevated but who knows if that really means that I am pregnant.
This journal entry is pretty much the same as the other one I wrote just a day ago but it is all I can do to not go insane!
8.26.2011
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"Thank you, this month for some reason has just been a tough one! Truly thank you for the support." -- KELLY42105
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I am hoping that this bloated, tight, stretched feeling is a good sign. I dont normally feel like this. I am on CD 23 and dont normally feel really bad gas pains, I am a bit sore around my stomach and am wondering if it could mean pregnancy or side effects of the crinone gel that I have not taken before this month. I looked it up online and there was a website about pregnancy that said about week 4 you may feel a pulling, stretching, bloated and like you have gas pains which are all signs of a stretching uterus (meaning pregnancy). I didnt know that this happens initially but they said it happens towards the beginning of pregnancy around week 4 and periodically throughout the pregnancy. But....I looked up the side effects of the Crinone gel and it said feel bloating and cramps, which I dont know which I best fit into. I can only hope!
I know that since I am already on CD 23 I could take a home pregnancy test (5 days before period) but I just dont want to jinx it, I am going to wait until Saturday, closer to the end of my cycle, it will be CD 26.
Keep me in your prayers as this cycle has been a bit of a drain on me. I am just hoping that i feel like this becuase of pregnancy. I can only hope and pray. Ryan is sure I am pregnant but like I told him it could be becuase of the crinone gel or an off cycle or just a fluke, I keep trying to prepare him just in case.
I have decided that if this cycle doesnt work, I am just going to ask my OB GYN if I can do the IUI like we talked about. But again I hope that I dont have to talk to him about that becuase hopefully I am pregnant.
Thanks for your support through this seemingly never ending journey. I keep trying to focus on the end result of having a baby but with each cycle it becomes a bit more and more discouraging. I hope everyone is doing well and would love to hear where you guys are at in your pregnancies or where you are at in the trying to concieve procress. No matter where you all are in your stages, I hope everyone is doing well for the most part.
8.24.2011
I had really bad pain in my pelvic area, like really bad menstrual or gas pains. I am on CD 15 so I think it may be ovulation however I took a home ovulation test and there was only a faint line which the directions said was not an indication of the LH Surge. I am confused.....hmm but we still tried tonight anyway and will again tomorrow. My temp only went up to 98.0 from the normal 97.5-97.7 range, I guess you could call that a spike. I'm not really sure.
I am hopeful this crinone gel will do the trick. This cycle has been hard, for some reason the estrogen has been affecting me differently this cycle, when I take it I get weepy a little and a bit sad/blue for no reason. I am glad that I am on the crinone these next 2 weeks and done with the estrogen for this cycle. I am really hoping this works.
8.16.2011
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For what seems like forever my dr has kept me on the same meds cycle after cycle month after month and it hasnt worked. So I my dr told me that this cycle will be the same meds but after that I will be trying the gel form of progesterone which is called Clomine I guess.
I am hoping that this may just be what we need, just something new that my body may not have already adjusted to.
Well I got good news that he wanted me to do this on this cycle instead of waiting. Ryan & I are both excited and hopeful.
I will say this about Clomine is that it is expensive...with our insurace that saved us over $100 we still have to pay a little over $200 for it. Yikes. I really hope this works.
I'm only on day 7 of my cycle. I'm finishing up my clomid for tonight and then starting estrogen tomorrow until saturday.
Keeping my fingers crossed.
8.8.2011
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"Thank you ladies! I am keeping my fingers crossed too and have started saving my reciepts thanks for the tip." -- KELLY42105
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We have not recieved our new insurance cards in the mail yet, they should be arriving soon. Since we havent recieved them yet, my dr. said we should do another month of trying with the clomid, estrogen, and prometrium. He did say that before he wants to send me to his associate/specialist that he would like me to go through this one more month of the same meds and if that doesnt work only try one month of a higher dose of clomid, same estrogen, and add in some liquid that I will need to insert into myself down there instead of taking the prometrium. So he would like me to try two more months of stuff with him before going to his associate!
I am just hoping that maybe it will work either this month or with the new inserted stuff when I try that. Maybe something new will do the trick. We shall see, I am just hopeful and ready to get through this. I find that my hubby is thinking about having kids just as often if not more than me now days! He has been great support and I just keep saying that I hope I can make him a dad one day very soon!
7.24.2011
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Well, I am not pregnant yet....even though I would love to be however there are of course positive steps forward. We are recieving our insurance cards anyday in the mail. The last time I visited my OB he said that he didnt like my last three cycle's temps and that the only thing we could do would be to give me a higher dose of prometrium and to have me take 2 pills everynight after my temp spikes above 98.0. I did this for the last cycle and when I turned in the temp charts a couple of days ago, he called me right away and told me that unfortunately my temps looked, "miserable," in his own words lol. Even though he said they looked miserable he said that he would like me to try a higher dose of clomid, prometrium, and estrogen. I will start this my next cycle as I am already on day 10 or so. So unfortunately this cycle is out but I feel this is positive steps forward because the last time he put me on clomid, it took a couple of tries but I was able to get pregnant so I feel confident about that part. However, I am calling him tomorrow to ask him what our plan is for once I get pregnant because that is what I am most worried about. I want to make sure that I do everything I can to keep a healthy baby.
I see these all as small positive steps forward.
My OB did say that if this doesnt work, he would like me to go see his associate who is a fertility specialist. I hope this doesnt become the case, but you never know becuase 3 years ago I didnt think I would even have a hard time getting pregnant or have a healthy baby but it just goes to show that we need to be thankful for everything, try to understand there is some purpose that we dont always see, and that the only thing we can do is to learn from these hard times, grow from them as people, and make the best out of the situation we have and be thankful for those we have in our life!
1.30.2011
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Tonight Ryan said something to me that really saddened me and really hurt me, it has been staying with me all night tonight. He didnt mean to and he didnt mean it to be mean or anything like that. I didnt have the heart to tell him how it hurt so much becuase I know that it is partially due to my emotional sensitivity to this whole ttc and have a baby journey!
We were discussing us having a baby and sort of daydreaming about it, talking about boys and girls and names, and exciting things, and how we both cant wait. And then he asked me, "do you think we should tell anyone when you get pregnant again for awhile?"
I just stared at him for a second and before i gave it away how much that stung I just answered and said, "umm no, well...I will tell my mom becuase i can always talk to her" I know he didnt mean it mean nor did he even realize it. I am just so upset becuase what is on my mind now is that I feel that he just looks at me as though it will happen again, and i feel that when I tell him i am pregnant that it wont be as happy as it should be. i just feel very sad, i have been trying to feel positive and deal with things the best i can and try not to think about this every waking and even sleeping/dreaming second but it has been impossible and now if Ryan sort of feels that way then wow, I dont know what to say!
I certainly dont want to upset everyone and be the root for everyone's excitement and then tear it down, so I guess wow I really wont tell people especially his family or friends, I will probably tell my sister and my mom becuase they know how it is as well. I just feel very hopeless and just want to ask him ok well...do you even want to try anymore or is it just hopeless? even though i know he wouldnt know what i was talking about and probably doesnt think that but it is just affecting me this way and making me think some very sad things like that!
I can see the hope in things and how much God has given me and will defintely cling to God for strength through this and just pray that a miscarriage doesnt happen again as I dont know how my husband will take it, now i question will he want to try if it doesnt happen for us again?
Wow, just very sad but i know in my heart God knows what is best for Ryan and I and i pray that to get there we dont have to go through too much more. Just keep us in your prayers.
11.14.2010
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"Hey there, I know how hard TTC can be for some of us and what an emotional rollercoaster it is! I am sorry that his comment hurt your feelings - I totally understand how you are feeling - my husband says things sometimes that are what I would consider "insensitive". Hang in there...I think about you and pray for you all the time! I really hope it happens for you soon!!!!!" -- ANGIESEDMAK
"I am sorry that what he said upset you. I dont think it was meant to hurt you in any way. i think he was just trying to protect you. I like the idea of keeping things to myself for as long as possible. it's just my little secret for the shortest time. Good Luck i really wish you the best!" -- AMACDONALD81
"Stumbled on to your blog and I think I was meant to. I know from personal experience how difficult the ttc process is. DH and I started ttc Oct 2007 and had four m/c prior to being rewarded with our daugther this October.
The horror and shame of having to tell people you are no longer pregnant and seeing others around you seemingly have no problems is so difficult. I would never wish it on anyone. We continued to try but with this last pregnancy we kept it a secret for a quite a while - 19 ..." -- TRAVELGAL
"I am really sorry that you are feeling so down!! I wanted to comment as I have had a bit of a same experience and thought me sharing my thoughts might help you. Me and my husband lost our first baby Dec 2009. We were so excited and had just told all of our family when I started bleeding and miscarried at 9 weeks. Both me and my husband were scared to try again and the first 6 months of my 2nd pregnancy (due Dec 28 2010 :) I was so anxious and didn't enjoy everything like I should have.
We had a good weekend! We saw my mom and family for her birthday, she turned 60 which is very hard to believe, she is such a great mom and I love her so much! We are enjoying ttc again for the most part! I am on CD 15. We tried on CD 10, CD 12, CD 13, & CD 14. All of this trying has given me a raging urine infection. I feel so miserable but atleast I can hope that it will be worth it soon! I think I am going to stock up on cranberry juice for the next time we try. I am taking Amoxicillin and cranberry juice and hope to feel better soon! I am just hoping that we did it this time. Ryan hung a new curtain in what will eventually hopefully be a nursery, so i think he is getting very anxious and is hoping to have a baby soon! He also is nesting a bit i think lol. He has so far since we started trying last week, finished remodeling the bathroom, put up new trim, new caulk around the tub, painting the corners (which we alread painted but he said he wanted it to be better) hmm I think signs of nesting haha! He also is putting on the last piece of countertop on our new island. He is also constantly doing dishes and asking if i need anything. Poor guy, I really hope this is it for us, I really hope that we can have a baby soon, I know it would mean the world to me, but it would be such an amazing thing for Ryan, I can tell he is really hopeful and getting his hopes up and I just hope things work out!
Good news is that when we were pregnant the first time, we decided to paint the "nursery" so we already have it painted and have already put in new carpet everywhere upstairs. We painted the nursery pale green and have deep brown (chocolate) carpet. So the next thing is just to get a BFP and find out the sex of the baby and then decorate it, I cannot wait to be able to do this....doesnt this just sound so easy? lol
I have been thinking alot about women on here lately and hope that everyone is happy and healthy for the most part, I know there is always the usual bad and good times but I hope the good outweighs the bad! Let me know if you need to vent or if anyone needs to talk!
Sticky Baby Dust to everyone!
11.9.2010
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Things have been going good. DH & I are now TTC. I just had my monthly cycle. I am trying to get back into the swing of things so it may not be this cycle :), but that is alright. I called my dr. set an appt and called to find out if I could have my progesterone pills refilled. It will be interesting as I am paying for all of this out of pocket becuase as an electrician my husband has been laid off but he has been getting a lot of side jobs and the money has been good with that. He is actively looking for a job, he says that he wants to work for a heating and air conditioning company rather than strictly working as an electrician since they get laid off quite a bit during down times. We shall see but we started to work out a budget and plan on sitting down tomorrow to really go over it and get things for the most part worked out. :) It seems that if we dont just try, there will always be something that comes up where we feel like we shouldnt try, so here we go. My doctor is great and is willing to work with us, which is a blessing. We will just make payments and go along as we can! We are not going to let thigns stop us anymore, we have not actively tried for quite a while and I havent been pregnant since 2008, so we are going to support ourselves the best we can. I would get health insurance on my own but I was flat out told by the health insurance companies that I would be denied due to my "pre-existing" condition of Fibromyalgia. Oh well, :) I am just going to have a good and hopefully positive attitude for the most part about things like this. There is nothing I can do to change it so I will control how I react and how I let things like this affect me (that is something I can control)
I hope everyone is doing good and hopefully everyone is healthy and we hear good news from everyone.
I hope we can support eachother during our high and definetly our low times. There are times that it is so hard to keep going but when you finally get to look into a little one's face and call him/her your own, the bad will, I am sure suddenly fade away! I just hope we all get to that point and time sooner rather than later haha!
11.4.2010
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"Thank you everyone! You all are such a great support!" -- KELLY42105
"Best of luck to you:) Keep me posted on your journey! You will be in my prayers!" -- ANGIESEDMAK
"Good Luck! I wish you the best in the baby & job business." -- HAWKSMAMA
Things have been going good for Ryan & I. We have decided to start trying to have a baby again in July or August of this year! We had to put a hold on trying because of his job switch. Ryan started a new job in February of this year and wont have insurance until July 2nd this year so we will see where I am at in my cycle at that point and see...we may have to wait until August!
I have tried to not think about how much I desire a baby! I can truly say that while it is on my mind 24/7, I completely have enjoy these past few months of not TTC, I am excited to get to start again and I think this break was exactly what we need.
Work and school have been going good, I finished with classes for the Spring semester and will take a class or two at the local community college during the summer until I return to Lewis Univeristy in the Fall. Work has kept me busy but thankfully not too busy to enjoy life, my yearly review went great and had some really nice comments from my boss about my work ethic and how I dont participate in the office (health department) gossip, which is really nice to hear that she took notice of!
My husband and I have been taking our dogs for walks almost everyday, they have enjoyed that and it has kept us active and a nice way to spend time together rather than just watching tv and movie together (even though we still like to do that as well). His schedule is going to be trying when we decide to TTC again. He works night shift but I guess what they call a swing shift...he works 2 nights on and 2 nights off then 3 nights on and 3 nights off which gives him every other weekend off! I am not so sure how that is going to work with TTC but we will make the best out of it and i am hoping to stay this positve but who knows in the next few months how i will be during TTC! :)
I hope you ladies on here can keep me in check like you always help me to do! I have been thinking alot about all of you on here and have been praying and thinking espeically about a few of youand hope to see some good news when I finish writing this!
Take care and I will talk to you all soon! ( I think I am going to upload some new photos of my husband and I...and our doggies as well) :)
xoxxo
Kelly
5.30.2010
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"Hi, havent been on here in a long time. Just read your most recent blog and wanted to let you know that my hubby and I have decided to try for baby #2 just this month. So hopefully you'll be trying soon again and we can keep in touch to cheer each other on." -- AMACDONALD81
"I noticed in your blog you said you were going to TTC this summer. Well I am doing the same on the SMEP so if you ever wanna talk, vent, or anything I am new and going through the same things. Good luck on you journey, and with DH's new job. " -- TWILL106
"Best of luck to you! My prayers are with you:)" -- ANGIESEDMAK
"Good luck and I hope that it happens fast for you. I'm glad you enjoyed your time off and I hope that this fall is full of things to keep your mind busy!!" -- HAWKSMAMA
"Good Luck with TTC! Tons of Babydust your way 'cause the wait is crazy!" -- SLICKCHEETAH
I wish that I would just know whether or not I am pregnant! I know that God has to be telling me to just trust in Him and when it is right He will tell me!
I know there must be a reason for all of this and why when I have always used pregnancy tests at home they have been right on and always were accurate, now all of a sudden the tests have half a test line or half a positve or no test line. I thought it was the brand so I went back to the one that I have always and forever used and still got a dotted test line instead of a solid test line......what is going on! It is almost funny if it wasnt so worrying! I know that maybe God is just telling me that He will tell me when it is His right time and that I should be patient but truly right now I just feel like breaking down and crying! I dont know if I can go through another month of this. I just hope that I am late for a reason. I was due for AF on Sunday and it has already been 4 days going on 5 days. If I was pregnant I keep thinking that the HPTs would give me a BFP, but they arent so I am only trying to rely on faith and hope that God is just trying to tell me to be patient! I am being patient but my heart is starting to hurt from everything and every let down! I have not had 3 BFNs and still no AF! I dont know if I feel pregnant or not other than still having to go to the bathroom more and pretty tired but that could be something else who knows!
I just keep looking at that painted room next to ours and how it is all set and cleaned out and painted, all done and just waiting for a baby to fill it! I dont care if it is a boy or a girl I just want to be a mommy to a baby that gets to stay here on earth with me this time that I can hold and take care of!
I can clean and clean and get everything prepared for a baby but without being pregnant there is only so much that I can do to prepare for a little one before all that is left is actually having the baby! All the nesting in the world wont do any good without having a little one on the way!
I really hope God allows me a BFP soon! Until then I will work on my patience becuase I know I need to work on it!
xoxo
1.7.2010
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"Hi Kelly! I hope God answers your prayers! I'll keep posted on you, not on the net all the time, but reentering Babyfit myself for a little support and to diffuse some excitement that my DH and I are possibly PG (waiting to have our first successful healthy pregnancy...) Dont worry! :) Hope you have a great week with a + result !!" -- SNAPBABY
"Just wanted to tell you that I was in the same exact position with the baby I am carrying now! I got 3 negative tests after I had missed my period... I waited another 2 weeks without AF and finally got a positive result! Somehow I ovulated late- early enough to miss my period but late enough that it took time to show up through tests. Stay positive but dont get your hopes up either. Just wanted to share:) Keep your chin up:)!" -- KESHAANN
"Thank you both so much! I think I need a blood test too! The faint line was only after like an hour, so I bet it was just a fluke! It has been very interesting to say the least! :) The dr. said to call and set an appointment to come in for bloodwork if I still dont have my period on Monday morning regardless of whether I get a BFN or BFP. Just hoping that you are right and maybe the little one is just taking his/her time telling me he/she is here! :) Thanks ladies!" -- KELLY42105
"OH kelly, you said that there was faint line??! I think you need to go get a blood test! Maybe you o'd much later and that baby is taking its sweet time implanting.
Big hugs and BFP thoughts coming your way!!" -- RUNNINGMOM16
"Isnt it kinda funny how all of that happens? When I tested last weekend before my blood test I totally missed the stick!! What? haha I am considered a professional when it comes to testing : ) I should have taken that as a sign but I didnt and wasted another test! I have heard of people not getting a positive until later...bc it takes their body a little longer to realize its pregnant! Maybe thats it! I hope its your BFP this time! You room thing is soo cute and soo familiar! We have a room that..." -- MSISLES
I am about a day late for my period and I am always early! So I am hopeful and am trying to not get my hopes up...however of course that is not working and I am excited as I could be!
I took a test yesterday and it still gave me a BFN, but my temps are skyhigh, like 98.5-98.7 and they have never been that high, not even with my period!
I dont really have any symptoms of being pregnant other than, me having to get up out of bed to pee more, which is very unusual for me! I always have slept through the night without having to use the bathroom, and now if I dont go by 1 am I am up by 6 or 7 desperately needing to use the bathroom!
I am just praying this is a good sign, now if I could just get a BFP! I am going to retest on Wednesday if I still dont see AF!
I am so hopeful!
1.4.2010
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"YAY! SOUND GOOD! I WILL KEEP MY FINGERS CROSSED FOR YOU!" -- MSISLES
"Thank you both for your support! I hope I can get a BFP soon! I called my DR to just see if he wants me to come in for a blood test and will probably hear back from him by the end of the day! Lets hope! Thanks again!" -- KELLY42105
"Fingers crossed and lots of babydust~*~*~*~ Keep us posted!" -- RUNNINGMOM16
"Here is hoping for a positive test!" -- MOMOFATEAM
DH ran out to the store to buy cranberry juice, and AZO becuase of course.........I have a UTI! I just hope this goes away within a day or so! These make me sooooo miserable! But I am thankful that I have a hubby that cares so much!
And I thnk Ovulation is occuring today! So there goes that! Ohhh well!
I just hope that since we tried last night and every other night prior that it works this month!
Ughh I am feeling so miserable right now, this is a true pain! Ouch!
sorry i just had to get that off my chest!
:)
12.22.2009
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"I HATE UTI"s! Almost more than AF!!! I have to say, the second thought that ran through my head when I got this BFP was "sweet...less bd'ing! No more UTI's! SO bad, I know! Hope you get your BFP this month! bab dust" -- LESLEYRAY
Well.... I found out that my pharmacy (walgreens) has been giving me the wrong amount for my prescription every month! My doctor told them to up my dose and they didnt do it as much as he wanted, so for every month I thought they followed his orders and apprently they didnt.
I found this out by giving him my 5th temp chart this past week for him to check my last cycle and see if I was ovulating.....well he tells me that I dont have that strong of a temp raise that would indicate a "good, strong" ovulation and tells me that I will take 3 clomid a day, which is the max dose he can give me and informs me that maybe 2 is not working. And that is when I told him that I hadnt been taking 2, I had been taking 1 a day on CD 3-7 and he wanted 2 a day on CD5-8.
So lets hope that now that I have the right dose, maybe it will work! Otherwise he said that if we get to 3 a day and that doesnt work then I will probably have to go see his associate fertility specialist! Uggh! I just hope it works this month, I dont know if I am ready for that yet! But I will do what it takes to have a healthy baby!
I hope I hope this month is it!!!
DH & I have decided that instead of starting on CD8 to start trying which is monday, that we will start today since we are gonna try every other day and since my cycles might be a little off still and I may ovulate early or late, so we are going to try early and continue trying through the end of my cycle, so that we can ensure that we tried every time possible! I think every other day wont be bad, now if it was everyday that would get to be too much! :) It would feel more like work! :)
We concieved in December a few years back so hopefully we can do it again and hopefully just enjoy this time and concieve a healthy, happy, and especially sticky baby! We could use some christmas cheer this year!
I hope this works.....I know that I have said that alot in here, but that is just what is on my mind and I need to get it out!
I think now that we are gonna start trying tonight it might make it easier and I wont feel so impatient! Lets hope that is the case! :)
Good luck to all who are trying to concieve out there! 12.12.2009
"Thank you so much for being there Angie, I hope it happens for the both of us soon!" -- KELLY42105
"I'm right there with you girl! Hang in there! Good news would be wonderful this month! I will be praying for you! Stay positive, you have been through so much and have made it through it all still smiling - it will happen for you! I just know it!" -- ANGIESEDMAK
So I am on cycle day 4 which means we will be starting the sperm meets egg plan on Monday, which is my cycle day 8. I truly hope this month it works, I am trying to remain positive and hopefully this will be our month! DH & I are really gonna stick to trying everyother day until after ovulation has occurred! I am hoping by the end of December or the beginning of January we have a BFP. But I called my doctor and wanted to know if starting my period early would throw a wrench in this sperm meets egg plan or not! And meanwhile I found out the nurse there hadnt even heard of trying Robittusin to counteract sometimes what happens when you take clomid (drying out cervical mucus).
I am just truly hoping and praying that we get our BFP and even more than we have a healthy full term baby after 9 months!
I want to be a mommy more than anything and my husband is talking about being a daddy everyday now! I just want to start our family already! I want my parents to get to experience being grandparents and I want my children to remember their grandparents and how great they are and my dad is not in the best of health, so I am hoping this happens soon!
Please pray for us and hopefully we get babydust and a sticky baby this time! I dont care, boy or girl would be great as long as he/she is healthy!
xoxo
12.10.2009
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"I am still praying!!! Keep us posted!" -- MOMMY2KAY
"Thank you so much! I truly hope this happens for both of us!" -- KELLY42105
"Prayers are being said right now for you!" -- ANGIESEDMAK
"Thank you, yes I hope so! Maybe it will be this month because I just found out from my doctor that for months Walgreens has given me the wrong dosing amount! I was supposed to take 3 clomid a day for CD5-8 and they had me taking 1 clomid a day for CD 3-7......we prolly would have had a positive before now if i had been taking the right amount! No wonder it hasnt gotten too much better! " -- KELLY42105
"I will keep you in my prayers. And im in kinda the same boat. Yesterday was 4 months since our angel left us. So we are on CD 13 now and hopefully we get our BFP on Christmas." -- LEXY_89
I must admit I have been doing good! Today is the second day that I have had no caffine. This is a new record for myself. I atleast usually have coffee and a pepsi or two :)
I am truly hoping that this may help in this pregnancy! I am trying to prepare myself and continue to eat better while we ttc.
Next week is when I am supposed to ovulate in my cycle, so we are going to try then. We are going to try the egg meets the sperm method, if I have it figured out right. I think it is trying everyother day around the time of ovulation. I have to read it more, I should know this by now! I am truly hoping that this month is our month to concieve a healthy happy baby. I hope to get a BFP as an early christmas gift next month! I hope I hope I hope! :)
Hopefully the next time I do a journal entry there will be good news to put into it!
I will need all the prayers I can get! :)
11.18.2009
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"Makayla was conceived on the SMEP. Good Luck!" -- MOMMY2KAY
"I started the completely no caffine also. I have made it about a month now! In the afternoon is when its the hardest! Good luck! Hope your Christmas wish comes true!" -- MSISLES
I saw another babyfit member found this poem on babycenter.com and I thought this was so very true for us all
WE ARE ALL MOTHER'S.
Dear Mr. Hallmark,
I am writing to you from heaven,
and though it must appear
A rather strange idea,
I see everything from here.
I just popped in to visit,
your stores to find a card
A card of love for my mother,
as this day for her is hard.
There must be some mistake I thought,
every card you could imagine
Except I could not find a card,
from a child who lives in heaven.
She is still a mother too,
no matter where I reside
I had to leave, she understands,
but oh the tears she's cried.
I thought that if I wrote you,
that you would come to know
That though I live in heaven now,
I still love my mother so.
She talks with me, and dreams with me;
we still share laughter too,
Memories our way of speaking now,
would you see what you could do?
My mother carries me in her heart,
her tears she hides from sight.
She writes poems to honor me,
sometimes far into the night
She plants flowers in my garden,
there my living memory dwells
She writes to other grieving parents,
trying to ease their pain as well.
So you see Mr. Hallmark,
though I no longer live on earth
I must find a way,
to remind her of her wondrous worth
She needs to be honored,
and remembered too
Just as the children of earth will do.
Thank you Mr. Hallmark,
I know you'll do your best
I have done all I can do;
to you I'll leave the rest.
Find a way to tell her,
how much she means to me
Until I can do it for myself,
when she joins me in eternity.
10.30.2009
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"Your poem made me cry. It is so true though. I lost twins over 9 years ago and you never really get over it. It has taken me this long to become pregnant again and I went through fertility for years and then stopped and that is when I became pregnant again. I am so happy but scared also. I wish you luck and God bless" -- SOHAPPYIMPG
"that's very beautiful. thank you for sharing." -- JAYNEMAE
I am having my patience truly tested becuase this month we did not concieve and therefore my hubby wants to hold off until the new year becuase as of November 1st we will have new insurance and if we got pregnant now we would have to pay a deductible for only 2 months Nov. & Decemeber and then start all over and have to pay more again starting January. So he wants to wait and I can completely understand and can agree, but it is gonna truly test my patience when we already are having problems concieving to take 2 months and completely stop trying will be hard.
I am still taking my medications and have them for novemeber and december so I can continue them and continue to build up my body and who knows maybe we will get pregnant right away in January.
But now I am struggling to find things to keep my occupied so that I can feel productive until January and I have thought of starting to save more $, figure out a way to decrease our grocery bill and do things that will only make healthy habits for us in 2010.
It has just been discouraging, but it makes sense and maybe the two months off will give my body just the small break it needs from focusing so much on it, So lets hope that November and December are productive and January is a BFP!
Next Saturday will be especially hard as I am going to my sister in laws baby shower! I am truly so happy for her but ugghh! :)
10.30.2009
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"I'm in the same situation. I upgraded my Aflac Insurance yesterday so I need to not get preggos before Feb. If I do I will get $200.00 less per month. I hope we can wait.
It's really tough when everyone around you is preggos and you are not. My sister just had a baby, my 2 cousins are expecting,and 2 of my girlfriends are also expecting. I'm trying to remain postive about the situation. I just keep reminding myself "Faith in God includes Faith in His Timing". Try to keep that in mind... mayb..." -- MRSWOOLSEY
"I'm in the same situation. I upgraded my Aflac Insurance yesterday so I need to not get preggos before Feb. If I do I will get $200.00 less per month. I hope we can wait.
It's really tough when everyone around you is preggos and you are not. My sister just had a baby, my 2 cousins are expecting,and 2 of my girlfriends are also expecting. I'm trying to remain postive about the situation. I just keep reminding myself "Faith in God includes Faith in His Timing". Try to keep that in mind... mayb..." -- MRSWOOLSEY
"Thank you so much! And Yes, that is what we are thinking, we truly wouldnt mind if we got pregnant this year but we are hoping maybe just having fun with everything and trying to not focus so much on ttc maybe it will happen. :)" -- KELLY42105
"Sometimes when you're not trying is when it finally happens. Good luck in all you do, may you be blessed when the time is right." -- SMILEE123
Well as I wrote in my previous entry I barely had what I would call a period this month and it started pretty early. Which would deem this cycle a little off track. So that had me kind of down a bit anyway, but when I called to refill my hormone prescriptions at my Dr.'s office, the nurse called me back and said that my Dr. would like to see my temps prior to refilling my prescriptions. Well i am supposed to start the meds on the third day of my cycle which was yesterday. So, I went and dropped off a copy of my temp chart.
I wait to hear from him or his nurse and no call. So I called today around 1:30 or so and was told by the receptionist that he wasnt going to be in today and will be in tomorrow but that I should try back tomorrow afternoon. So I was 'ok' with that, a little discouraged that I couldnt start my meds that much sooner, but still i figured it was his job and he was just wanting to make sure that everything was ok.
So I would say about 10 minutes later I get a call from his nurse saying that I needed to call her back and when I did all she said was I called in your prescriptions. So when I tolder her what the receptionist said and I asked her specifically if he was ok with the temps and she said that he told her everythign looked perfect. Hmmm well thats funny since my temp didnt rise at all to show when or IF I even ovulated. And when I asked if he was ok with the temp not rising she told me that he didnt mention it.
So I dont know, I guess I will give this month's cycle a chance to be normal and see if my temps rise, if they dont then I want to know if we can make sure that I am even ovulating somehow.
All in all my Doctor is the best I could ask for but sometimes his staff can be a little disconcerting. :) I still am happy overall with everything I am just getting a little discouraged with TTC I think.
There...I am now off my soap box! I am done complaining.....Sorry I just had to get that out there becuase I am just hoping that these hormones work and that I have a healthy baby! ..I guess I am just starting to question whether God is trying to tell me that I shouldnt have kids or that maybe there is a reason why I am not concieving so easily. I dont know, I just hope that God feels we should have kids. I would truly love to be a mom and I know from listening to him talk that my DH would truly love to be a dad. I just hope I can give that to him and just sometimes feel bad about so far not being able to give him healthy kids, even though he tells me all the time that its fine, I shouldnt feel bad about it for him, and he tries so hard to comfort me, but just sometimes I cannot help but think like that. I know I shouldnt and I know I should have patience and faith but those are two very hard things for me to have in this specific situation.
But I will try..... 10.22.2009
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"I feel the same way. Is God punishing me for something I've done years ago. (No, aborts... may sound like it as I proof read this) I feel so mad today like for some reason I can not conceive. Does God really want me to be a mom? Am I fit to be a mom? I'm just really discouraged today. " -- MRSWOOLSEY
So I got 'something' today....it was hardly what I would call a period, but I guess that is what it is. I am not due for my period to start until the end of this week or the beginning of next week. But today to my surprise it came early and very very very light, I hardly have any blood only when I go to the bathroom and even then it is only on the toilet paper mostly. Sorry I know...Too much information. But I am just kinda frustrated because of course....for a while my cycles were beginning to regulate and now this curve ball, but hopefully I can just chalk it up to an oddball month and DH & I can start trying again in about 14 days or whenever I ovulate next. So atleast it came and I can get it over with and try again this month.
I hope this happens for us soon, it is starting to feel like this may never happen.
Plus, while I am happy for everyone, I just found out DH's best friend is going to be a father of twins in the next 7-8 months, my sister-in-law is due with her little boy in about a month, and two people are expecting at work, while another just got back from maternity leave. So this has been a real test of my faith and patience, which I have been trying to maintain! I just keep telling myself there is a reason and there is a time and when God feels that time is right, we will have our little one...even though I wish it was NOW
I am so glad that I have this website and such a great group of friends on here...you guys are truly what keeps me strong and are always there to understand just how I feel and to relate to and to keep me grounded. I am happy for all of you who got your prayers answered & are expecting or have a little one of your own and hope that everything continues to be a blessing and may you be a glimmer of hope for every other woman who has a problem concieving or carrying a healthy baby, you all are a truth inspiration and motivation to not give up. And to you all who are there in the TTC phase with me, I am so glad that if anything out of this situation I have met and gotten to know you and we will continue on to try and stay positive! xoxoxo
Kelly
10.19.2009
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Trying to breathe and relax through these horrible cramps, I can barely even stand up straight. With each cycle it seems it is getting a little worse but I am just trying to tell myself that once I take the clomid, estrogen, and progesterone it will get a little better. If not, oh well but at least it will make me feel better to think that tonight :)
I am continuing to work on my health and prepare my body so that we can have a healthy baby.
This is the first month that I will be taking all three hormones/medications. So I am also continuing with the half- aspirin and prenatals everyday. I have hope for this next little one and am truly doing any and everything to make sure that I do all that is possible on my end of things to ensure a healthy and happy baby. I think God will give us a little one when he feels everything is right and when we should have that little one here with us!
Everything else has been going well and we are making some improvements on our house, we are adding a new island in our kitchen as well as painting our living room, dining room, hall, & kitchen. Plus we have empire coming out next Monday to hopefully pick out some carpet that we like as well.
We are just getting everything set and getting the house and our health in order.
Well it is off to watch dancing with the stars :)
xoxo
Kelly
9.29.2009
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I havent felt very well for that past few days, I have been taking the Progesterone and prenatals in hopes of concieving but still no luck yet! I just feel sick to my stomach, cranky, and have had such bad migraines for the past 7-10 days! I think just for laughs I will stop on my way home to get a pregnancy test. I really doubt the first month of taking Progesterone that we have concieved and I think my body is just playing tricks on me, but I would rather be sure either way!
Other than that everything with work and school has been going good and there have been some big advances that I have made. I actually got more hours at work and am really enjoying my job, it has been a big change from the law firm that I worked at for about 5-6 years but I like working at the Local Health Department and it is only about 3 blocks from my house, which is very nice and would be great for when/if we have a baby! The only bad news is that we found out recently that my husband will be loosing his job in August or September becuase his company is closing, so I have been applying him for every and any jobs that we can find, he has a couple interviews and we are hopeful....
xoxox
Kelly
7.27.2009
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"Wow - it seems you have a lot going on! I will pray that your husband finds a job even better than the one he is losing and that the progesterone works!" -- ANGIESEDMAK
I wanted to thank everyone who commented on my last post, it has been hard month after month either getting a BFN, or just not having a good month for baby making :)
but after I got the BFN I not only had to deal with that let down but then I noticed that my usual 3-5 day period was actually more like 12-14 days long on this last one and when I went to my OBGYN about a week or so ago I asked him about this and he said that my usual problem was the reason for this one too.
He explained how women who have extremely low progeterone most of the time have this lovely side affect to go along with not being able to concieve or keep their baby(s).
So he suggested that since the progesterone work so well in concieving my last little one that I should start taking it monthly from day 14-25 of my cycle every month and also a baby aspirin each day. He felt that this would gear my body up along with the new prenatal vitamins that he prescribed me!
I sure hope something works, hopefully within the next few months we will have some great news!!
6.22.2009
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"I have heard of that. Then once women get a BFP they have to take baby asprin daily. I actually saw it on a baby story. So they figured out the problem then?" -- MOMMY2KAY
So this morning I couldnt stand it anymore, I cannot tell whether my basal body temp is up enough, and I cant tell whether I am hungry more than usual becuase I recently started taking my prenatals regularly again! So I thought hmm, I will just test to see if there is any sign of anything and so far when I tested...I got a BFN! Darn! I know that it doesnt mean that I am not pregnant 100% becuase I honestly am not due for my period until next wednesday so I tested pretty early......and as much as I promised myself that i wouldnt get my hopes up by testing today and that I would get discouraged when/if there was a negatvie becuase of how early it was...I still did get a bit discourage! I am trying to stay at least semi positive about this month and am just praying that this be our month to concieve a healthy baby!
I am staying hopeful and dont really think that I want to test until I have missed my period for sure this time becuase those pregnancy tests are really costing me for every BFN!
If I am not pregnant this month that is ok....I guess :) I wil use this month to try and only prepare my body and everything else for a baby to enter into it eventually!
I can only hope that God finds that this is the time for Ryan and I to have our healthy baby that we have been waiting for and honestly less than patient for! :)
I just am so thankful for baby fit and everyone on here becuase there is so much great support that it is amazing and I hope to remain life long friends with everyone!
Kelly
5.28.2009
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"I'm sorry to hear about your BFN! It is so hard to remain patient when testing! Hang in there, it will happen for you! I just know it!
So I have been feeling nauseous and just kind of "off," not really like I am getting sick but just off. So I set my appointment with my doctor to get a check up in a week and a half. I am so hopeful that I am pregnant again! It is almost all I can think about.
If I let myself that would be all I would think about but I am trying to focus of work, school, my DH & just eating healthy and TrYiNg to not concentrate on my hopes of being pregnant but I just cannot help it sometimes. So a little while ago while I was sitting online eating breakfast I read some early pregnancy symptoms to look for and I totally forgot about the Basal Body Temp, now call me crazy I got up and went & got the thermometer (even though I just drank a cold glass of milk) I figured hey I can test it now and if it is really low because of the cold milk I will just retake it later, well.................it was 99.1.........Ok so I am trying to not get my hopes up EVEN more BUT ahhhhhh! I really really hope this time, I really really hope!
I am normally like 97.0 degrees and NOW 99.1??? All I can say is that I really hope this time I am pregnant and that this time we have a healthy happy baby!
All I can do is wait now and pray that this is the time that God wants us to have a baby!
xoxoxo
Kelly 5.24.2009
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"Hello Kelly I am hoping the best for you. I very much understand the heart ache of miscarrying. My DH and I got married 3/15/08 we MC in June08 and this past Feb. I am currently 6 weeks with our 3rd and praying very hard that I carry this one to term. It is hard to understand why these things happen. Keep faith!" -- COCOJPMOM
Well, today I am feeling hopeful to say the least. I am having some cramping which I am hoping is a sign of conception or maybe the start of conception.
I can only ask God....please please please! :)
I am trying to stay positive and trying to not get my hopes up but every slight miserable cramp I am praying is a good sign and hopefully we will have good news next month! And hopefully No Period! :)
The reason I am so hopeful is that this month we again started back up and calculated when I should be at ovulation and tried to plan "our times" around that expected occurance, I am very hopeful that maybe maybe maybe we did it this time! I only hope to do more so that this time my little one sticks with me and is healthy!
As I said I am trying to stay positive and for the most part I have been able to do so! I actually have taken this time and used it to better prepare for pregnancy and for a little one! I have taken steps and have started to eat better, I have made a pledge to cut down the amount of pop/pepsi I drink! I am eating more things for snacks that are healthy instead of chips, salsa, soda, etc. I am now snacking on carrots/ranch dressing, yogurt, flavored rice snacks, and more water than prior, drinking water is one of, if not the hardest thing to drink more of, I really dont care for it or the taste but I am trying to atleast drink some during the day!
Also since the problem with my little ones appears to be the heart, I have started eating cheerios; thinking that maybe if I make my heart stronger, the next baby's heart will develop better and be stronger!
I just want to know that I did all that I could to better prepare my body to take care of the next baby! I want my baby to have a good strong start from the beginning! All I can do is try and prepare and get ready for if and when I get pregnant again!
I really liked this quote that I found on here:
"Far away in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, Believe in them and try to follow where they lead." - Louisa May Alcott
xoxoxo,
Kelly
5.18.2009
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Yes, Again....we have waited now for about 3-4 months and it seems like forever! I really miss my babies but know that God has some plan, even if I dont understand it, He knows what he is doing. I only pray that he grants me a pregnancy and a baby that my DH & I can be blessed with here! I love God and know that whenever He decides I will have a baby, is when I will have one, I just hope that it is soon!!
DH & I have yet again decided to try again for a little one, I really really am praying that God allows us to!
I love the two that I lost, that will never change, even though I never got to "meet" either of them face to face, I did carry them, care for them, love them, become more than attached to them, and they each were unique and different for me! I love them and always will! I am comforted in knowing they are with God and He has them for His own reasons!
Lots of Hopeful Baby Dust!!
xoxoxo
Kelly
1.14.2009
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"I will be praying SO BIG for you, Kelly! I really hope you're able to conceive another precious baby soon. You have such a sweet spirit and I know God will reward your faithfulness. Hugs!" -- BRITNEY0886
"Good luck!!!! I really hope that this is it for you! Hang in there! I love how faitful you are during this incredibly emotional time!!! Angie" -- ANGIESEDMAK
With each day that goes by I am trying to maintain a positive attitude.
I am trying to put my faith in God and realize that I have fallen short of that in the past and am trying to not do that now, even though that is the easy thing to do, I know that is not the right thing to do.
Ryan & I are growing stronger and stronger in our relationship with everything that we are going through with this whole situation. We have been able to talk more open and freely about anything and everything. We have always done that in the past but have found that recently we have been doing it more almost out of a comforting tactic that we are relying on eachother for! I love him very much and can only hope that one day I can give him a healthy baby boy or girl!
He tells me that I should not feel the way that I do sometimes about this whole situation. He says that he understands it but just really wants me to know that it is not the way he feels at all. But I cannot help to sometimes sit and think about how many great women he could be with that would give him healthy baby. I almost feel like less of a woman through this whole thing. I feel like women are meant to have babies, create families, care for them, and love them. I feel like women should have babies, I honestly dont know what I would do if I found out that I am not able to carry a healthy baby to full term. I know then that these "every once in a while" feelings would turn into an everyday burn!
I can only hope that this Karyotype testing tells us something, anything, a problem that we can fix.
Until then I am just relying on God and realizing that everything is all up to him and I need to just listen to him.
I am beginning to wonder if He is trying to tell me/us that it is just not the right time for us to have a baby right now for some reason! I am just hoping that is not what He is saying. We will see what these most recent tests show.
Kelly
11.10.2008
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"Its wonderful that Ryan and you are getting closer through all this. I know many ppl who would end up divorcing, ect... God is with you and I am hopeful that you will have your little bundle of joy some day. For some reason right now just isn't time. Your in my thoughts and prayers that you get some answers." -- MOMMY2KAY
"Kelly, I totally know where your coming from. That feeling of inadequacy is not from God though, You were fearfully and wonderfully made by Him and He does not make mistakes. You were made perfectly capable of having children. Hopefully the test results will be helpful, but even if they say something awful, just remember that every woman in the bible who was barren went on to have children because they were faithful and believed that God was big enough to overcome whatever their issues were. The..." -- BRITNEY0886
Things have just been crazy! I am just thankful for what I do have in my life. I am hoping & trusting in God for a good outcome to this whole situation.
Well my second lab testing came back with good results as well. Nothing seems to be out of the ordinary. I cannot tell whether this is good or bad anymore, when my Dr. finds nothing wrong! I am glad that there is nothing wrong, but yet at the same time I know that that means More Testing.....
Which is what is happening now.
I now have to go back to the hospital with my husband to get more testing done and he will have his first tests run this time. He hasnt been tested before for problems, he is actually happy that they are testing him too. I guess that I am just feeling like its me and feel bad that now he has to get testing, even though he is totally fine with doing it and has felt bad that I am getting all this testing done, I guess it is just me & just feel bad that he has to get testing done now.
I am just going through emotions right now as well! I am keeping myself busy and trying to stay positive about everything!
Anyway this testing that we have to have done is Karyotype testing. It is for chromosomal and genetic malformations of me and Ryan! And to see if we need genetic counseling.
We shall see, I just hope to find something out, not that I want there to be a problem, but if there is one, I would just like to know it.
Well I will talk to you all later.
God bless and I hope that you all are doing well and are healthy along with your little ones.
Kelly
10.24.2008
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"I hope u get some answers. Keep us posted." -- MOMMY2KAY
"I hope u get some answers. Keep us posted." -- MOMMY2KAY
"I hope u get some answers. Keep us posted." -- MOMMY2KAY
Well there is not good news and not bad news either, I guess.
Yesterday, My OB called me and told me that all of the chromosomes were healthy, normal, & developed excellent for a healthy baby, All 46 chromosomes.
So since it wasnt chromosomal that means that it wasnt just a fluke and points to something other than it just happening when the chromosomes dont form right, so he wants to find out what exactly it is causing this.
More tests...... ;)
I hope they find out what is going on soon enough! It was bad enough that I miss my little ones but when he was talking to me about the chromosomes it slipped out that it was an
XY Chromosome and that I would have had a little baby boy!
So I miss my little baby boy and his sibling just as much.
A little boy.............
10.17.2008
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10.12.2008
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So there's alot on my mind, but for some reason no words come to mind about things like this.
All I can say is that I am so thankful that God has given me Ryan, amazing family, great friends, & obviously this great support group of friends here on babyfit. I want to thank you all for really caring and seeing how I am doing, I know that many of you have experienced similiar and yet different things like I have lately, I am equally very sorry for any of your losses.
Surprisingly I am doing ok, of course not great but in large thanks to Ryan I am handling things alright, he has truly been my support! I just really am thankful for the things and the people that I do already have in my life and we will continue to try to add another wonderful addition with the help of God and hopefully soon. We are going to look into any of the possible problems that there may be along with what I can do to better the baby's health. We shall see how things go, I have a follow up appointment on Monday with my OB and really hope they say I am healing well and everything. I just really havent felt very well and have had some nasty little sideaffects from this whole situation. The pain in my stomach has gotten significantly better however I just dont feel well so I will check with him to make certain that everything is ok. I dont want things happening like last time when I nearly bled out! I guess I dont want that to happen again so I am taking it pretty easy. =)
So far I still feel a felling of hope that we will concieve a sticky and healthy baby, Dh just really wants to make sure I am ok, this has him pretty worried about me, so we get the test results they are doing in one month and that will give us some answers hopefully so that we know what to do next and whether or not to just try again if it happened to be just a fluke! I guess I am so busy concentrating on planning mode and getting everything to where Dh & I can start TTC again that it is helping with the mental pain of loosing another little perfect angel, I miss them both so much!!
I am just taking it day by day and using God as my strength!~
Kelly
9.25.2008
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Well I must say that after talking with another OB in my doctors office on the phone has helped calm and reassure me that everything is fine.
But I ended up staying home from work yesterday becuase I had pretty bad cramps and stomach pains (combined with the usual morning sickness)...I didnt mind feeling that way, with the cramps and everything just as long as it was normal and the baby was ok.
It did have me worried so I called the nurse in the morning becuase the cramps had waken me up throughout the night they were so bad, so i was worried that I might be having a m/c....uggghhhh!
But the nurse had the doctor give me a call and told me that since he had a good ultrasound less than a week ago and that so far everything seemed ok, and the baby was in the uterus and everything...that he really wasnt too worried about cramps, unless I could time them, then he said that if they come in waves and progress so much so that I can time them, then that can be a sign of m/c.
I am really hoping that everything is ok and cannot wait to get in the office to see him and to get to see the baby in another ultrasound! I just hope this week flies by.
So I guess this can be somewhat commom in pregnancy especially at the stage that my baby is at. So that helps a bit.
Well just had to write about this to get this off my chest.
9.12.2008
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Today was a great day! Dh & I went to our first OB appt and we had our first ultrasound. DH was so excited to get to see the baby! I will put up the ultrasound pictures later today....the baby kind of looks like a ring right now, so DH & I have another appt in 2 weeks for another ultrasound, because my OB said that everything is just starting to form and will be better formed in 2 weeks, and that ultrasound with show more shape, & will better guess the due date, but right now we are Expected to be due around April 16th! YAY
SO excited!
8.21.2008
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I just took a test and figured it would only have one of those pink lines, I was asking God to just please please please please let me be pregnant.
Two pink lines,
I am pregnant!
Yay
I am so excited! DH will be so excited when he gets home from work! I cannot wait to tell him, he has been wanting to know.
I am so excited.
Thank you God, I am truly blessed and should have more faith in what God wants & the timing that he already has planned for us.
I am so thankful God, thank you.
I am pregnant!!!!
=)
8.6.2008
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Big Fat Negative.......
I am getting sort of hopeless now, I have taken two home pregnancy tests and so far they are negative.
I know that DH & I Have tried to concieve on the day of my ovulation & before & after. It is just getting frustrating to not be able to get pregnant.
I am due for my period either the 10th or the 12th or sometime around then. But I have taken a test sunday, and this morning, and still a negative.
It has been so heartbreaking to get that one little line, instead of two.
I feel really sick to my stomach everyday around late afternoon, I am really hoping it is morning sickness. I really really hope. I am going to wait until about thursday or friday to test again. I should have just waited LOL.
Oh well......
We shall see, cross your fingers.
xoxoxo
Kelly 8.5.2008
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As of today I am still very hopeful that I am pregnant, my temps have stayed up above 97.6 & higher and even more so I have had some of the oddest moods, I have just noticed myself being irritated and cranky, it could just be the meds I am on, but it could also be my "pregnancy" hormones (*cross my fingers*) DH has said that even though I feel as though I am cranky or easily irritated,I havent shown it that much, only occasionally, which is good! I am glad if I have been able to control the irritablility.
I just really hope that this month we are pregnant.
I have about 3-4 more days of meds & then I am done for this cycle...so I think that I will try taking a test on my last night of the pregesterone meds to see if this month's cycle with the meds worked or not. So that would mean I would take a test on either Sunday Night or if I wanted to wait one more day to not test too early, maybe Monday, but I dont know if I will be able to wait that long.
Uggghhh its this waiting game & I hate it.
LOL hopefully next month DH & I wont have to play this waiting game. I just hope that God has blessed my DH & I with a healthy, growing, baby this month. I know that if it is not this month that there must be some reason that only He knows, but it is so hard to wait and want.
We shall see.
xoxoxo
Kelly
7.30.2008
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I just created a very very hopeful due date ticker.
It is not even for sure that I am pregnant but I have a really really great feeling about this month.
I know that I should wait until I miss my period & what not, but I really feel as though this month there could be no way that DH & I did not concieve, I have been taking those fertility meds, they have regulated my cycle, I ovulated on the 14th day of my cycle, & I actually felt like I was ovulating so I went and took my temp it was only 97.5 then two-three hours later it was 98.2 and I hadnt had anything to eat or drink that could affect it during that time.
DH & I tried and I laid there for the rest of the night and had my butt up on 2-3 pillows, I really really hope this sticks and still today my temps are high above 98! I know from what my OB Dr. said that if my temps stay above 98 even after my ovulation, I am probably pregnant.
I know this is a slight....really small chance, but I am still taking it and really taking care of myself and have been taking my prenatals like there is no tommorow. I am just hoping that this is IT! YAY..so my ticker is from the first day of my last menstrual cycle like how they calculate it so I have started the due date since then, I can only hope.
PLease God, Please...
DH & I Have just been really praying.
We shall see in a few weeks.
xoxoxo
Kelly
7.24.2008
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YAY....I ovulated today so DH & I tried Baby Makin Today.....I am just hoping that this is it. I have a great feeling about this month! I have been taking my prenatals along with the medications that my OB prescribed to help my ovulation and my progesterone levels.
I have just been really taking care of myself, Oh my gosh I really really really hope that in about 4-6 weeks I dont have any sign of AF.....Uggghhh it seems so long to wait to find out.
Patience Patience Patience. =)
7.23.2008
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So I started taking the second medication on thursday, I am taking the Estradiol (3 tablets. 2times daily) so it is now the waiting game, I am waiting and watching for my temps to go above 98.
My DH & I will hopefully try tonight & then wait for my temps to spike and then every other day TTC.
I am getting too anxious. I will go back to trying to concentrate on work. Uggghhhh I just hope this week we concieve and just get to enjoy being pregnant again.
xoxoxo
Kelly 7.18.2008
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So far I have been taking my 1st phase of meds since saturday....I dont think i am moody, & DH doesnt think so either. Luckily. =)
Well wednesday I start to take the estradiol & then the progesterone, & I pray that I can catch my temps rise & be able to see when i ovulate... I really hope it is this month.
Please Please Please.......
7.14.2008
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Ok...so today I started my period, so in 2 days I have to start taking the medicine that my OB gave me. I trust him with my whole heart it is just that I am nervous about my moods and hope that I feel ok while I am on these meds of basically nothing but regulators and hormones =) Ugggh & if these cramps dont let up..I am going to go crazy! Bad enough my period is early, but my mood has been very bad, very edgy and grouchy these past few days, poor Ryan.. God Bless him for being such a good man for putting up with me. I hope that we figure something out soon, I just want to be pregnant....If I was pregnant and miserable at least I would have a baby to show for it. LOL
Wish me luck. I will begin my journey through hopefully what is the beginning of being able to get pregnant on this cycle...so hopefully by next month we will have good news!~
We can only hope~
7.10.2008
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My thyroid & other levels are ok, so I guess it is just my progesterone that is the problem!
I am just praying these medicines to stimulate ovulation & also the progesterone pills work.
7.3.2008
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These few past days have felt a little awkward to say the least. My boss had her second baby and she brought her in to visit me here at work & I held her and truly am so very happy for her & I think the little baby is so darling. But I just feel awkward only because I feel that she is watching me to see how I react...she is always so careful about "how I feel" about babies ever since my Miscarriage! I just really hope that she doesnt think that I am sad becuase of her great joy!~ The only reason I am sad right now is becuase of all the trouble I seem to be having. I recieved a call from my OB right after taking my temps during my cycle and he explained to me that I would need to start on these medications that are "introductory fertility drugs..they wont make me have 7 children or anything but rather stimulate my ovaries to ovulate at the correct time...which they arent doing now. And also my progesterone is too low so I also have to take progesterone pills around the first spike in temp I see in the next cycle in July.
I just really hope this works, It has been since last April or May that DH & I have been TTC!
I just really am hoping this is the beginning of the end of our problems!
7.2.2008
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After my appointmnet on Tuesday I am still hopeful that I will be able to have a baby without tooo much difficulty. HOwever I have to re-take my temps for this month's cycle to see if last month's temps were a fluke month or if those temps are constant with me. If they are constant he did say that we would have to take the next approach and get my levels/temps higher, meaning I need more progesterone! Uggghh, I really hope that everything can be fixed or leveled off!
Kelly 5.9.2008
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I am so proud of myself, I am eating better, taking my prenatals like I should, taking my blood pressure and my temps everymorning.
I just hope for a March Miracle.
2.22.2008
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Dh & I really cannot wait, I have been taking my temps every morning and are planning to have BD during the ovulation day(most fertile day) and the days around the Ovulation date we will try TTC I really hope this month is our miracle month, we have been trying since last April.
Kelly
2.19.2008
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Well today is going pretty good, except for the fact that my lovely mother in law once again called and reminded me that "yes today last year is the date that I miscarried." How nice of her, I just dont understand why she has to bring it up all the time. Well anyway, today is pretty good, hopefully going to get to see my parents this weekend to exchange Cards & Candy as always.......but work will keep me busy until about 5:30 or 6:00 tonight, uggh and it is only 8:45 am. right now. lol thats ok though.
Hope everyone else is having a good valentines day.
2.14.2008
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Ok....so I am so happy because I went to the doctor he gave me some really good suggestions on how to get pregnant. He explained the 5 most fertile days. He taught me how to tract my temperature and my bloodpressure and what that has to do with my fertility. He answered any and all my questions and really wished me luck he is just how I remember him to be.
i only saw him one time and that was the night I miscarried and he was such a big help, he was really caring that night and was a real comfort to have. I am so glad that he is a really nice guy, I have decided to use him instead of the other OBGYN that I used the last time I was pregnant. He gave me a chart and when to test my temps. and what signs to mark down and told me to come back in one month. I really hope by March I am pregnant.
He just gave me a lot of comfort in knowing that right now statistically it doesnt seem like there is any fertility issues. in 2 months from now there is a 10% chance that I have a fertility issue but only after trying for a complete year do I have even 10% chance of having a fertility issue.
I feel so much better and so does my DH thanks to him.
We shall see what the months of February and March bring us, hopefully a beautiful baby.
kelly
2.13.2008
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I am what is typed as "almost to full LH Surge" so I am almost in full Ovulation, I will continue to test for the next couple of days to see!
DH and I have been trying so hopefully we have it this month!
I feel like this month might be it, as long as we know when and what day I am ovulating on! We shall see, i will keep ya'll updated.
Good luck to all of you out there as well.
Lots of babydust to you all.
Kelly
2.9.2008
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Think you know all the important stuff about eating healthy during pregnancy? From folic acid to seafood safety, test your "Pregnancy Nutrition IQ" here.
7 of 13 Correct
You know some of the nutrition basics, but could probably use a little review. Scroll down to see which questions you missed, and you'll be on your way to an even healthier pregnancy!
When should you take prenatal vitamins?
Before you conceive
When you find out that you are pregnant
Only if your health care provider recommends you take them
During the 1st and 3rd trimesters, when critical growth of the fetus occurs
Explanation:
Even if you eat a healthy diet, you may need to take a supplement. Folic acid (folate), a B vitamin, is especially important during pregnancy to prevent neural tube defects. But, you need this vitamin (400 micrograms daily) even before you conceive for the best prevention.
Always discuss any supplements with your health care provider first.
True or False: To prevent common 1st trimester nausea, eating smaller meals can help.
True
False
Explanation:
Morning sickness typically lasts only during the first trimester, but many women experience it throughout pregnancy. Smaller meals are easier on the stomach.
Other tips for prevention include: avoiding spicy and excessively fatty foods, avoiding strong odors (coffee, garlic, etc.), eating ginger products (such as dried ginger or ginger tea), and acupressure.
Read Natural Cures for Pregnancy Symptoms for more ideas.
During pregnancy, how many extra calories do you need daily?
Twice as many-- you're eating for two!
500 calories
300 calories
It depends on how much you weigh
Explanation:
Pregnancy requires an additional 300 calories per day (breastfeeding requires 500), and it does matter where you get these calories from.
Good nutrition (avoiding highly processed foods, eating plenty of fruits, vegetables, and whole grains, avoiding caffeine, etc.) prevents many complications and helps your baby stay healthy.
During pregnancy, you need to consume more of which of the following?
A- Folic acid (folate)
B- Protein
C- Iron
D- Calcium
All of the above
A, B, and C only
A and C only
Explanation:
Try to exceed the recommended 400 micrograms of folic acid to prevent neural tube defects. Protein is important for your and baby's normal growth patterns and antibody production. Extra iron (aim for 27 mg daily) helps support the increase of blood volume that you need during pregnancy.
Although you don't need extra calcium, most women still don't get enough. Read Calcium Foods and Supplements to learn more.
Which of the following foods are considered safe to eat during pregnancy?
A- Unpasteurized soft cheeses
B- Shark
C- Chocolate
D- Soy products
E- Cold deli meats
F- Sushi
G- Pasteurized soft cheeses
None of the above
C and D only
C, D, and G only
Explanation:
Chocolate is safe in moderation (just watch your overall caffeine levels). Soy products are also recognized as safe, but some experts believe that early exposure to soy can cause allergies, so discuss this with your health care provider first. Avoid unpasteurized soft cheeses (such as feta), but pasteurized soft cheeses are fine. If unsure, heat the cheese until melted.
Deli meats, such as turkey and ham slices, are safe, but only when served steamy hot.
Check out Playing it Safe: Deli Meats and Soft Cheeses for more safety guidelines.
When should you stop drinking alcohol?
Before you conceive
When you become pregnant
It's safe to consume less than 2 drinks per week
During the last 2 trimesters
Explanation:
Avoid all forms of alcohol when you are planning to become pregnant, and throughout pregnancy. When you drink, so does your baby. This can cause many complications, including physical abnormalities, Fetal Alcohol Syndrome, low birth weight, mental retardation, and motor development complications.
It is safe to eat foods that contain alcohol as long as they have been cooked/simmered at least 60 minutes, allowing the alcohol content to evaporate.
To learn more, read Alcohol, Smoking, and Drugs: The Facts.
During pregnancy, you should limit caffeine to 300 mg daily. Which of the following contains the least amount of caffeine?
8 oz. cup of coffee
2 tablets Excedrin
12 oz. can Mountain Dew
1.5 oz. Hershey's special dark chocolate bar
8 oz. cup of cocoa or hot chocolate
Explanation:
In descending order, here are the caffeine contents: Coffee (135 mg), Excedrin (130 mg), Mountain Dew (55.5 mg), Hershey's bar (31 mg), Hot cocoa/chocolate (5 mg). Eight ounces of decaf coffee also contains about 5 mg caffeine.
Don't forget about the caffeine content in teas, other medications, cappuccinos, and coffee flavoring (including coffee-containing desserts like ice cream).
Which foods are good sources of folic acid (folate)?
A- Dark, leafy vegetables (kale, spinach)
B- Legumes (lentils, chickpeas)
C- Citrus fruits & juices
D- Whole grains
E- Refined grain products (cereals, white bread)
All of the above
A, B, C, and D only
Explanation:
You need at least 400 mcg of folic acid daily during pregnancy, but most health care providers recommend 600-800 mcg. Enriched grain products are required by the FDA to contain at least 20% of your recommended folic acid requirements.
Other good sources include: lentils (179 mcg per 1/2 cup), boiled collard greens (177 mcg per 1/2 cup), chickpeas (141 mcg per 1/2 cup), medium papaya (115 mcg), peas (94 mcg per cup), steamed broccoli (52 mcg per 1/2 cup), and medium orange (39 mcg).
True or False: Healthy food choices can prepare you for labor, breastfeeding, and promote a healthy fetus.
True
False
Explanation:
Following a healthy diet is one of the most important things you can do to ensure the health of you and your baby. Other "health boosters" include: a regular exercise program, not smoking, avoiding alcohol and caffeine, and keeping stress under control.
True or False: A low-carbohydrate lifestyle is healthy during pregnancy.
True
False
Explanation:
Carbohydrates are the body's main (and preferred) source of fuel. Eating too few carbohydrates, whether pregnant or not, causes the body to burn protein for energy and to burn stored fats incorrectly. This fat metabolism produces a by-product called Ketones.
During pregnancy, ketosis can cause brain damage and irreversible mental retardation in the infant. Low-carb diets can also result in nausea, lack of energy, headaches, and a loss of appetite, to name a few.
Not all carbs are created equal. Give up the sugary, refined foods (white bread/rice, cookies, sweets) and increase your intake of whole grains, fruits, and veggies.
Play it safe. Read Low Carbohydrates and Pregnancy for more information.
Why is fiber important during pregnancy?
It helps you feel fuller longer
It helps prevent constipation & hemorrhoids, which are common during pregnancy
It helps regulate blood pressure
It helps regulate blood sugar
All of the above
Explanation:
Most Americans only get about half of their daily fiber requirements! Fiber is important for many reasons, but during pregnancy you should aim for even more to offset the constipating effects of your increased iron intake. Aim for at least 25 grams per day.
Which types of fish are safe to eat during pregnancy?
Swordfish and shark
Raw fish (sushi)-- as long as its salmon
King mackerel and tilefish
Catfish and pollock
No fish are safe
Explanation:
Certain fish are safe during pregnancy, including: up to 12 oz. weekly of low-mercury fish (salmon, catfish, pollock, shrimp, and canned lite tuna), and up to 6 oz. weekly of albacore (white) tuna and locally caught fish.
Though more expensive, choosing wild fish over farm-raised fish will also decrease your PCB exposure.
Which of the following non-dairy foods has the highest calcium content?
Canned baked beans
One pack instant oatmeal
24 almonds
Canned salmon
1/2 cup boiled spinach
1/2 cup firm tofu
Explanation:
Calcium content in descending order: 1/2 cup firm tofu (258 mg), canned baked beans (128 mg), one pack instant oatmeal (163 mg), 24 almonds (75 mg), canned salmon (150 mg), 1/2 cup boiled spinach (122 mg).
Dairy isn't the only source of calcium! Aim to get 1,000 mg daily.
2.7.2008
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I shouldnt say that I might be pregnant just cuz i can never tell,.... but my husband and I have really been trying lately and I started taking my prenatal vitamins again.
It feels like it is taking forever and I just want my little baby, I would love to be a mom and Ryan really wants to be a dad.
I really really really really hope that we are this month or at least next month. I will probably find out next week, becuase that is when I am due for my period, next week or early into the week after that....We shall see! Pray for us.....
Kelly 2.7.2008
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Ryan and I have been ttc, but still a year after MC not pregnant......I am trying to still have high hopes and am making an appointment with a doctor to find out if everything with my body is ok.
I dont want to make an appt too soon just because I know that when trying to get pregnant, it takes a while, but just want to make sure everything is ok.
I guess you can say that I am anxious.
I really miss being pregnant, is that weird to say??? :)
I guess I must be feeling more and more like this right now because this time last year i was pregnant and miscarried on Feb 14th (valentines day)so it is hard. Plus my boss is pregnant, my husband's friends girlfriend is pregnant and I desperately want to have my baby that I lost back. It normally doesnt bother me this much, I still think about it but it is really hard since we have been trying and trying and trying to get pregnant again and I feel like, "Will I ever be pregant."
But of course I know that I will but I just feel a little upset.
I still want to name my baby Riley James Hitt if I have a boy......:)
2.4.2008
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I really hope that I am pregnant and not just late with my period!!
Ryan really wants to be a dad along with a husband and I would love to be a mom and continue to enjoy being a wife to the best man ever! I love him and only hope that we can add another person to love and take care of to our own little family.
Keep us in your prayers, thank you to all who has given me your support during my rough time.Thank you so much it means so much.
Kelly & (Ryan) 9.10.2007
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Dh & I went to the doctor today and found out that we should be ok to have a baby and that as long as my periods are pretty regular, it should be fine to continue ttc! However, after trying for a month without luck, it seems like there might be a problem, but who knows maybe we just didnt time it right!
I am hoping that everything is truly fine. She said to take my pre-natal vitamins and so I will be doing that along with a healthy diet plan and exercise plan!!!
Hope this works and we are blessed with a March Miracle baby! 5.23.2007
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Well last night I took another test with another pale line indicating that I could be pregnant. I took it because I started spotting very lightly and didnt feel too good, stomach was cramping and pains a little big. But today I have a really bad headache and just feel sick, and started bleeding pretty bad this morning!
~I guess this means I am not pregnant~
We are going to the doctor on Wednesday to see if everything is ok for me to have kids, it has been a couple of months but maybe we shouldve waited longer.
I just dont know.
I just hope that there is nothing dramatically wrong.
Keep us in your thoughts!
~love Kelly & Ryan~ 5.21.2007
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Ok so even though I know that it is still to early to really tell accurately whether I am or not pregnant. I still went to Walgreens and got two test and one showed a little faint pink line, indicating that i could be pregnant. I just hope this is a good sign, I hope that in 2 weeks we find out whether I am or not, by then it will be long enough to be able to tell!
keep us in your thoughts and prayers.
Thank you to everyone who already has!
~Kelly & Ryan~
5.11.2007
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I will find out if I am pregnant in 2-3 weeks, I cant wait, I just wish I was were I would be at if I never miscarried. It is hard becuase I want that baby, the baby I lost back. It seems so hard to have to go through this whole process again and having to wait not only to find out but another long 9 months!!
But I know in the end, if I am holding a happy, healthy baby, this will all be worth the wait!
5.8.2007
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We have been trying to concieve, I have been cramping and feel like i did when I concieved last time, lets hope this one sticks. I am praying that everything goes strong!
I feel like it, but it is too soon to be able to tell whether I am or not yet! I will be able to know in about 2-3 weeks when my cycle would normally be due!
Keep me in your thoughts and prayers ladies, like you all have been already. I really appreciate everything you all have done for me in this past year!
Kelly
5.8.2007
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Well last night around 8-9pm I started to have really bad cramps, worse than any period, and my stomach felt like it was ripping open, so when Ryan got off work, he ended up talking me into going to the hosptial, around 12-1am and they were worried about all my bleeding and when they when up in they opened the vaginal opening just a little bit and a lot of blood came rushing out, my hemoglobin (sorry unsure how to spell it right now) dropped by like 2 or more points within an hour and a half, so they really watched that. They ended up having to clean a lot out from up there, and that really really hurt, they paged the doctor I had seen last time I had gone to that particular ER cuz they couldnt get a hold of my OB GYN he said to start Petosin, which is normally used to induce labor, as well as to contract the uterus to push anything out! So that started to feel uncomfortable at the least, it also can cause heavy feeling in the chest, and it did, it became hard to breathe, which then worried me and made the breathing situation a little worse, so they took me off the petosin and gave me some kind of shot to dry or clot the blood, so i wouldnt loose any more blood, and two other shots to relax me and make me sleepy, so hopefully i could sleep. And after having diareeah from one of the many medicines they gave me, and feeling even more sick, after they wheeled me out of ER and into OB to wait for several hours until one of the OB Gyn's would be there, i ended up sleeping about an hour and a half. It has really been horrible on everyone, and lots of stress for my mom and especially poor Ryan, he is such a big help and he tries so hard, and for him, it seemed like he could help me or do anything for me, but he is just comforting to have him there and to care that much when he was up since 8 am yesterday morning, I finally made him go home,before they wheeled me out of ER, around 5:30am, because he had to go to work today at 2pm in the afternoon, he needed sleep, but didnt want to leave, he has really helped through all of this. I am glad that he is able to get off work at 10pm tonight, he needs to just sleep, but I am sure he wont,he has been to worried! My mom stayed out at my house until about a half hour ago, I told her she should go home before she got sick from not sleeping that much today either. Like I told her through all this pain and everything, atleast I have been able to lay down and sleep some today! I was told to stay home from my boss, she has helped a lot too, so I guess I am off work the rest of the week.
I feel really really weak and shakey and really sweaty, so I should probably go lay down again, but I just wanted to update everyone, on what has been happening, I appreciate everyone that has been there, family and friends both, thank you everyone for everything, it has been most helpful. 2.21.2007
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Well yesterday, I joined curves fitness center for women, I like it for while I am pregnant. It is circuit training, so it doesnt exactly fit everyone's needs perfectly as would a set personal fitness program would. But combined with doing my personal fitness workouts, it should be fine and really good during pregnancy. I would recommend curves for you pregnant women, simply becuase it raises your heart rate to a safe level and they encourage you to periodically check your pulse, so they watch and help you throughout your workout, more than i would normally like, but while being pregnant, it is the safe route.
1.18.2007
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Well my fiance and I are excited, in fact I cannot tell who is more excited me or him.
I have had my first few visits and my first ultrasound, it is all so exciting.
Bump is already showing quite a bit, because I have a tiny waist and tummy. Bitty bitty bump! Exciting for Ryan to see!
However at first.....it was hard to swallow this "fate" as I called it, I was worried because of my age,I never wanted to be an un-wed mother and even though we were planning our wedding when we found out I was pregnant, my first reaction was "Oh no, how? I was on birth control?....well that doesnt always work ;)" I thought to myself, I have always been told that I was mature for my age and now look at me, I felt, immature and was scared that those who once thought of me as a "good kid" would not be anymore. Well shortly after telling my mom, I learned that was not at all the case, and after that, everyone that found out only congratulated me and was happy that a person like me was going to be a mom! This was against my beliefs of how things should go in order, but as I have learned......"
Important things that are going to happen to you......you better take them when you are blessed with them!"
That is another reason why I have joined babyfit.com, because I want young women to see that it is not all bad as long as you have or make a plan and set goals and learn or are mature about the situation that you are handed, no matter what the case, always love yourself and your decisions, but learn from them as well. And remember that you are now responsible for someone other than yourself! AHHH scary to think about.....:)
Sorry to blah blah blah....but I just want you all to know me and my experience.
Because I would love to learn and hear about all of yours, to anyone who feels like sharing it!
1.16.2007
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Today I have told more people about my pregnancy and to my surprise were very supportive and happy, not to mention excited. I am so happy, our first doctors visit is this Thursday. We will find out if our estimated due date is accurate or not. New diet has started and new exercise plan as well. This should be interesting
12.19.2006
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I'm finally taking some time to write this. Sorry for taking so long everyone! 
DH is definetly nesting. :) 
but anyway our plan was that I would continue to go to school and get done and in the mean time stay home with our little one while he worked. I only had about another year, so we thought this would be great! 
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